Bye Bye Grandpa Minchuk

My grandpa died. I received the phone call last night i never though I would, with the news of his death. i hit the floor, and sobbed in pain..really trying to believe the words that were just said to me. Mom had been trying to call him for many days now. he lives in Theodore, my nanny is in a nursing home there, and he lives alone in the trailer. She couldn't seem to get a hold of him, so she asked the 20 year old neighbour to go take a peek on him, cause sometimes he has phone troubles. Not this time. He opened the porch door and before he could step in, he was there lying on the floor. he called mom back, vibrating by what he say...poor guy.. how terrible for him.

We drove out to Dilke to b with mom cause dad said she was a wreck. she was just at grandpa's on the weekend for her monthly visit. My two brothers ended up coming as well, so it was really nice to have us four children together and be there for her. We talked for hours, reminisced about him, and how wonderful he was. We all I believe are still in disbelief and cannot really fathom that he is gone.

The first night in...well months... Aubrie sleeps through the night. I finally have her turned around, and she sleeps awesome now. And here Iam, getting home at 1:30 in the morning, and thinking, envisioning grandpa, wondering what happened, and so on. I wake at 6:30 with pain, agony in my stomach cause I try and tell myself that last night was a dream, but i know in my head and heart it was real. I get out of bed, house is quiet, and I am mad. Mad about death. i don't understand, and I don't think I ever will. i don't know why people have to die, why can't we all live to be 1000. I thought about the day i have to face when my own parents pass on, and I really don't know how I will ever make it through that.

I think of my grandpa, and am proud of the life he lived. he loved his wife unconditionally, even if the last how ever many years she didn't know who he was. He had a great sense of humor, always wanted to chat, and loved telling stories for hours on end about when he was younger. He was a good man, and I now know he is in a better place, and is running around cause that is something he could never do.

I love you grandpa.