Smmer's OVER

Well what more can we say, but that most people are probably upset, and dreading the cold weather coming soon. Well it's kinda here already I guess. Crazy how one day we can be in shorts and sun dresses, and the next day we are in jackets and long pants and the fire place is nice and hot inside. I have officially packed away all the kids summer clothes, and needless to say Allie was pretty upset. She cried and cried cause she loves her sun dresses, and said she would just where them in the house, so I left a few out for only that.

I have been trying to simplify my life lately, and by doing so I mean getting rid of stuff and having things more neat and tidy. The toys is always a main issue in this house, cause when I clean up, I like to put things back to where they belong, and when riley cleans up, it's shoveled into the toy box. And also with four levels, toys can get mixed up and lost very easy. So I moved ALL toys down to the basement, organized, and the girls, and Boedy love it. I left one container of toys upstairs for Boedy but the rest went down and got re organized. It's been less work for me.

Boedy is busy these days. I find I can't turn around without him climbing the stairs or standing at absolutely everything. He is defiantly getting around these days. The stair thing is the most annoying, cause there are many stairs in our house, and he defiantly hasn't mastered the going down part, so the odd time i have found him on an entirely different level then I put him on, and it freaked me out to think if he had fallen back. But I guess he will learn eventually.

Allie is doing much better now with school. She has made friends and enjoys to go now. She loves her dance class so much, it's so nice that there is only 5 girls so she defiantly is learning alot more. Aubrie is changing everyday, and sure is a jabber mouth. She could talk your ear off, and most people can't believe she is only 2.

(I love this pic of her.. her cute little bum..hehe and Aubrie my little lady))

Hockey starts soon for me, actually this sunday is our first practice. Then every Wednesday after that. I also play Volleyball tues and thursday when I can, so it's been nice to get out with other woman. This weekend Iam really looking forward to riley and I getting away for a much needed break. Our first actually. Mom said we need to go somewhere together and get away from the kids, so we are leaving friday and coming back sunday.. but the funny thing is, we haven't decided yet where we are going.. Guess we'll c!!

MINE

We are off to the farm tonight after Riley gets home from work. Iam looking forward to going there and being away from this wonderful city(insert sarcasm). We both love going to the country and letting our kidlets enjoy the freedom of doing whatever they want. They love going to the farm and quading with papa, and going to the garden with nana, and playing with the kittens and the dog. Riley's mom and dad are always so welcoming, and it's just a nice break.

Today the annoying word most parents probably hate was busy used alot today in my house and i was ready to flip the lid...lol Except over lunch hour today the girls were being very funny, and how each girl new how important this certain person meant to them was funnier. They were saying mine, mine.. ect ect over silly little things... Then my 2 year old Aubrie thought for a second, and knows how much Allie loves Bella, and said, "MY BELLA"...lol.. And My 3 year old Allie, thought for a second, and knows how much Aubrie loves Noah, and said, "MY NOAH"! I actually was laughing that each thought of that on there own, and new it was going to bug eachother!! Well then ofcourse Aubrie since she is only 2, got the most upset, and spent the rest of the hour saying "no he's MY NOAH, he's my NOAH, I LOVE NOAH.." And i just kept saying, yes aubrie we know that. It was too cute!!

Have a great weekend Everyone!

Growing Up

Its been a long week. Busy as usual with the kids, but i enjoy that. I enjoy now that Iam getting out more, feeling like iam back in the worl

d. And meeting moms. I felt as though I was away from the world for a very long time, and now Iam seeing people and meeting people, its been nice. Ive had alot on my mind this week. Alot of stress and worry and hurt and pain, and Iam trying to deal with that in such a very strange way. I feel like I have been jabbed in the heart, and I have been let down big time and I hope and pray that someday I get over this road bump in my life.

Its been a fun week as usual with my kidlets. We played outside everyday, and they create such funny things, like soup and berry pies, and so many things. Aubrie dressed as Winnie the Pooh one day and it was 31 above outside. But it did not seem to bother her. Boedy is changing so much each day, and now i find him standing at things, and its just crazy how fast he is growing up.

We had a bit of a struggle this week, with Allie going to school her fourth day. You have to understand that she has been with mommy since she was born. Hasn't played with many kids she didn't know, and tends to be shy. And why it took till the fourth day, Iam not sure, but she cried and cried, and clung to me, and wanted me to stay with her in class. It was sad, and sweet, and awful, and depressing all at once. She did end up going and had a good time, and met a new friend. But as the teacher shut her classroom door and I watched her walk over to her seat, look back at me across her shoulder, just to see if I was there, I choked up. My little girl, growing up, and my heart broke right there. I carried my other 2 out to the van, buckled them up, then decided to walk back inside and peak through the window once more. And she was ok. She was singing a song with the other kids, and doing actions. I walked back to the van trying to keep my tears from over flowing... My little girl, another milestone in her life. As I sat in that van and drove home, I cried a little. Thinking about how fast these past 4 years have gone. I looked at Aubrie in my mirror and adored her as she looked out the window. I listened to Boedy talking in the back and didnt want that moment to ever change or time to ever pass by anymore. I love my kids so much. There my life, my everything, and I hate so much how fast they are growing up. Cherish every moment is all I think of.. cause before we know it, they will be gone on there own! Children only get one childhood!

Shrek, Princess Fiona, and Donkey

Well today we had a fun filled eventful day, as we always do in the Hannah house. Never a dull moment to say the least. We are usually up and running by 7:00-7:30, and the day doesn't end till 8 or so at night. (Well Iam usually up by 6 atleast!!) Iam trying as much as possible to be outside cause before we know it, it's going to turn cold. So the girls played outside most of the morning. Somewhere in there, Aubrie pooped in her panties, decided to get rid of it, and kept playing. So I found her with poop on her finger, bare bum under her dress, and pooped smeared all over her bum, and down her legs..and yet had to find the missing panties. So i took her to the bathroom, put her in a cold tub of about an inch of water.. cleaned her up. Went outside to find her panties covered in flies..lol.. and cleaned those up as well. She still doesn't want to poop on the potty, even though some days she will, but the next, no way.

We took Allie to school and I enjoyed a few hours with just Bo and myself. Except he spent most of the afternoon whining and crying cause he is getting his eye teeth.

When we picked Allie up from school we came home and played in the backyard. And well, guess who was Shrek?? Ya Iam sure you guessed me. I said 'why am i Shrek?' And Allie said 'cause you look like him'!! So she was princess Fiona, and Aubrie loved the fact that she was Donkey. We played over and over again how Allie was in her castle sleeping holding her flowers, and i rescued her then we got married. We did for atleast an hour. I was getting a little bored of it after that, but the girls had so much fun.

Now Iam off to Volleyball and looking forward to leaving the house for an hour!!

Time??

Well, the days seem to be flying by, and sometimes I just feel like I don't have enough time in a day to give to each of my children. I really don't understand how someone can have 18 children and find the time. Some days I feel so sad for them cause I know they want me, and even though Iam a stay at home mom, I still feel like i have missed out on alot of things. I have been struggling lately with keeping my cool and patience with them, and I find myself exploding in anger. I hate when that happens, but I just cant stand the fighting some days that the girls do, or when they just don't listen.

I find myself every evening in Allie's room cleaning up her pile of clothes from the 20 times she has changed in the day, and i wish I could get her out of that habit. I don't understand why Aubrie chooses to pee in her panties every once in a while, and says to me after i ask her why she did that, "because I can"! And Boedy, my sweet little cute spoiled Boedy. I feel like all Iam doing all day is feeding him, and all night to. Tonight I tried to fill his tummy like i always do, and as I carried him to his bed, he upchucked everything. Poor guy. So needless to say he will probably be up in a few hours with an empty tummy.

And me, I went out and bought a dairy queen ice cream cake tonight, because like Aubrie says.. "because I can"..lol I get these uncontrollable cravings when my little friend likes to visit. Worse than I ever got when I was pregnant. I could honest have ate the entire cake, thats how bad they get. So the whole family was happy as we dove into that after supper!!

Camping

Well all I can say is I had a GREAT time camping..(until Saturday night).. but thats a whole different story. Anyways, it was so nice to get away and enjoy quietness with my sister and mom. I had a huge break from my kids cause my sisters kids played with them non stop, so it was nice to have that time to sit back and relax for the most part. Riley surprised me and came friday instead of going and farming, so that was wonderful. It was perfect weather, and not very busy there at all. Saturday we went to my niece Isabella's 4th birthday. 4 already, I can't believe it. It was nice out at there place at Colesdale Park. We got back Sunday early, and enjoyed the day with the kids. Layed around, hung out in the hot tub, and the kids went to bed early cause they were tired. So tonight we are going to lay on the couch, watch some tv, eat some chips, and go to bed early as well. Camping takes alot out of u. Especially when Boedy has been getting up still 1-3 times a night for a bottle. Iam going crazy, and don't know what to do. My girls were never like this. My mom told me this weekend that my cousin, when he was a baby, my aunty Gail fed him two 8 oz bottles before bed...lol.. lately I honestly have been giving him a bottle, then half a bottle of water, and he guzzles it all.. plus a jar of baby food before that. He must be growing non-stop. He already is in 12-18 month clothes!!

Here is a pic of Allie, on her first day of school!! Aubrie was just as excited!!

Day # 2

Should i say from he$$. Cause I sure could. These kids of mine have gone crazy, and i think i have as well. They wine and cry and cry and scream and scream more, ALL DAY LONG. I actually am getting to the point where i can't handle it, and want to run away. Today i don't even actually know where the day went to say the least. I kept strong all day and as soon as Riley got home I ran to the shower locked the door and had a real good cry. I just want to throw the towel in some days. Some days i feel like iam all alone, and no one is helping me with these kids, or around this house. Iam starring at the clock on the wall, the clock that Riley and i both use all the time. The clock that hasn't told time in over 2 weeks now cause the battery died. But do u think he would change the battery??? So Iam going to be stubborn and leave it untill he does.

As i sit here Aubrie is screaming her high pitch scream cause Allie is teasing her, and Boedy is probably just watching it all, while daddy Iam sure is reading the flyers... errr... MEN!!

So on another note.. Boedy is so like our family dog. He screams and cries at the back door, till you let him out. And iam not joking, it's so funny. And as soon as u let him out, he is so happy crawling around the grass. Its so funny. But I best run and try to calm my family and count the minutes till bedtime.

Disaster

That explains today, it started off awful, and the entire day went that way. I have a very busy week ahead of me. Allie's first day of school was today, she starts dance on Thursday morning, and school that day as well, I have clients to do, and a camper to pack for a 5 day camping trip..(without my husband). I have had a day of crying, crying, and well lets just say more crying.. and not me.. the kids. Allie is like a broken record these days.. if i say no, u can't have that or don't do that.. that does not seem to matter, cause she continues to ask a billion times. Aubrie has these freak scream attacks, and i hate them, and it really pierces your ears when she does it. And Boedy, well thank God he is precious and fun and easy going. Lately all he wants to do is eat... From getting up 3 times at night.. yes u heard me right 3 bottles, I almost lost my mind. I don't even know how i functioned those days, but some how managed. Now he eats the big baby food jar, then a bottle. Boys are so different. He just seems hungry all the time.

Well lets just say I was suppose to play Volleyball tonight, and when my husband got home he got greeted with an angry wife, because the kids were still bonkers and Aubrie just finished dumping her rice all over the floor.. and we all know how fun rice is to clean up. Well Boedy just woke then, I went and got him, set him in the living room and said I had to go.. Well Boedy started screaming, cause ya.. he was hungry, Allie started crying cause she didn't want me to go, and Aubrie was doing her high pitch scream. I was ready to pull my hair out, as Riley flopped himself down on the couch cause he to had a long hard day. As i pulled out of the drive way, Allie's crying facial expressions weren't the best to watch driving away. So needless to say I called my coach, said my family has gone crazy, i wont be in. Drove around the city for about 15 minutes and returned home, went downstairs, locked the gate and watched 90210. WHAT A DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! The rest of the night.. lets just say could be a whole new blog post.... All I can say is, Iam barely alive..lol

Where Did the Time Go?

It's crazy how time flies these days. It just seems like yesterday I went into the hospital and delivered my very first baby girl, Allie Madelynn and now she is starting her first day of school tomorrow (insert crying here).

I remember when she was born Riley and I promised each other that before she started school, we would be out of this city. Well it looks as though that did not happen. Tomorrow we meet the teachers and

the other students in her class. She is very excited, as am I. Just feels like she is getting big too fast.

I can defiantly say that the last 3 1/2 years have flown by so fast. Probably because I have had three children, but I honestly wish time would slow down. When they grow up, it just means Iam growing up to, and I hate that thought. Turning 30 actually scares me.

But just like every other day, tomorrow will come and go, and soon enough she will be a pro at going to school and I am sure she will love it and ask to go everyday! And as I walk away from her class room, iam sure i will sit in my van and have myself a real good cry!

Doing Well

Lets just say I have never felt so good as I do these last few days... I started working out again about 10 days ago, and I truly think that is helping. It relaxes me and i feel good all day long. I have way more energy and having been dealing with the kids alot better at home. I was slowly falling off the wagon there for a while cause I felt like I could quit at any moment at being a mom. But now Iam back on top. I have much enjoyed this week of hot weather, went to the beach one day, went to parks in town, visited friends and came back alive it seems. Felt like i was hibernating for a long time. I have enjoyed my special time with Allie this week cause Aubrie went to my mom and dad's on Tuesday and it's been a nice break. We went and got her suited for her new dance school she is attending, and they all have to wear identical clothes. She was so excited for that, and we also went to the mall and each got an Orange Julius. We had alot of fun together this week. Made bead bracelets, painted, had many tea parties, played house and doctor. She even does my workout video with me, it's so adorable. I still can't believe she is going to school on Tuesday. It's going to be such a sad moment for me. Iam sure I will go to the van and cry. But she is SO excited and can't wait. Anyways off to get Aubrie soon, we sure miss her!!

TOO FAST

They defiantly grow up way too fast.... I had Bella over for a sleep over and the girls always have a blast together. The have such imaginations, and it's so cute to watch them play together. Gone are the days where they use to fight and tease and bug, now they enjoy each other and hug each other very often. Yesterday I walked upstairs and they were hugging in the hallway and Allie was saying `your my best friend Bella`, and Bella replied, `You are mine to allie`. It was so sweet. SO I thought I would post a pic of when they were babies and now!!

But I must go cause Boedy does not like that Iam not giving him attention right now.. lol.. BYE