Growing Up

Its been a long week. Busy as usual with the kids, but i enjoy that. I enjoy now that Iam getting out more, feeling like iam back in the worl

d. And meeting moms. I felt as though I was away from the world for a very long time, and now Iam seeing people and meeting people, its been nice. Ive had alot on my mind this week. Alot of stress and worry and hurt and pain, and Iam trying to deal with that in such a very strange way. I feel like I have been jabbed in the heart, and I have been let down big time and I hope and pray that someday I get over this road bump in my life.

Its been a fun week as usual with my kidlets. We played outside everyday, and they create such funny things, like soup and berry pies, and so many things. Aubrie dressed as Winnie the Pooh one day and it was 31 above outside. But it did not seem to bother her. Boedy is changing so much each day, and now i find him standing at things, and its just crazy how fast he is growing up.

We had a bit of a struggle this week, with Allie going to school her fourth day. You have to understand that she has been with mommy since she was born. Hasn't played with many kids she didn't know, and tends to be shy. And why it took till the fourth day, Iam not sure, but she cried and cried, and clung to me, and wanted me to stay with her in class. It was sad, and sweet, and awful, and depressing all at once. She did end up going and had a good time, and met a new friend. But as the teacher shut her classroom door and I watched her walk over to her seat, look back at me across her shoulder, just to see if I was there, I choked up. My little girl, growing up, and my heart broke right there. I carried my other 2 out to the van, buckled them up, then decided to walk back inside and peak through the window once more. And she was ok. She was singing a song with the other kids, and doing actions. I walked back to the van trying to keep my tears from over flowing... My little girl, another milestone in her life. As I sat in that van and drove home, I cried a little. Thinking about how fast these past 4 years have gone. I looked at Aubrie in my mirror and adored her as she looked out the window. I listened to Boedy talking in the back and didnt want that moment to ever change or time to ever pass by anymore. I love my kids so much. There my life, my everything, and I hate so much how fast they are growing up. Cherish every moment is all I think of.. cause before we know it, they will be gone on there own! Children only get one childhood!