Time??

Well, the days seem to be flying by, and sometimes I just feel like I don't have enough time in a day to give to each of my children. I really don't understand how someone can have 18 children and find the time. Some days I feel so sad for them cause I know they want me, and even though Iam a stay at home mom, I still feel like i have missed out on alot of things. I have been struggling lately with keeping my cool and patience with them, and I find myself exploding in anger. I hate when that happens, but I just cant stand the fighting some days that the girls do, or when they just don't listen.

I find myself every evening in Allie's room cleaning up her pile of clothes from the 20 times she has changed in the day, and i wish I could get her out of that habit. I don't understand why Aubrie chooses to pee in her panties every once in a while, and says to me after i ask her why she did that, "because I can"! And Boedy, my sweet little cute spoiled Boedy. I feel like all Iam doing all day is feeding him, and all night to. Tonight I tried to fill his tummy like i always do, and as I carried him to his bed, he upchucked everything. Poor guy. So needless to say he will probably be up in a few hours with an empty tummy.

And me, I went out and bought a dairy queen ice cream cake tonight, because like Aubrie says.. "because I can"..lol I get these uncontrollable cravings when my little friend likes to visit. Worse than I ever got when I was pregnant. I could honest have ate the entire cake, thats how bad they get. So the whole family was happy as we dove into that after supper!!