27

Well I turned 27 on Saturday. I can`t believe it. I never ever thought I`d be 27 with three kids, and look, Iam. We had Christmas on Sunday in Dilke, it was a good day, the kids all had fun and it was nice to see everyone.

We are celebrating our Christmas with our kids here tomorrow morning, the 24th, actually before Riley goes to work..lol... We bought Allie this 4 foot tall barbie house, Iam so excited for her to see it. It took 2 hours to set it up.. alot of patience.. and almost divorce papers..haha... It has chandeliers in it that light up, and even an elevator. It`s pretty cool and i know she will LOVE it!!!

We are headed to Quill Lake on Thursday morning till the weekend for there Christmas. SO to everyone, Merry Christmas, and drive safe where ever you are headed. And to Kristyn... please text me if this baby decides to come before the new year.. Iam thinking of u everyday!!!

Life

Well I have three kids under the age of 3.. and all I can say is life is SO BUSY... I don't have time to stop and think let alone remember half of the stuff that goes on in a day. Time flies by so fast, cause Iam feeding Boedy then he naps, then I play with the girls, feed Boedy, it's lunch time, diaper changes non stop.. nap time again, play with Allie, feed Boedy, make supper.. bath bed, feed Boedy... It's never ending is all I can say. Before I had him I looked at the clock alot during the day waiting for the moment Riley came home, now I am shocked when he walks through the door cause i can't believe the time.

It certainly has changed.. changed for the good yes.. but i just can't believe how much work it is, and probably a huge part is that there all so little and all so needy still. I went out today, just to my sisters, and getting them ready alone takes an hour I swear.. remembering everything and bundling, and carrying them each to the van. Iam tired, Iam worn out, and i constantly am going going at the house as well. All evening i clean, put the toys all back, do laundry.. dishes..ect.. Life sure has changed. He is only 2 weeks old, but it's feel like forever ago I had him.

Now about Boedy.. he is WONDERFUL.. PERFECT.. everything i hoped for. Yes I fell in love all over again, I want to hold him all the time, and kiss him, and look at him, and even when I go out to run a few errands, I miss him so much... He doesn't cry unless he is hungry or getting his bum changed. He is the perfect little boy..

The girls r good, busy as ever, Allie has been having her days and testing me in alot of ways, but i know thats part of growing up. Iam getting by each day, praying for strength and patience cause alot of days I feel i need it. I have been going through the blues alot still. Just so unhappy at times, and not sure why when I have such a wonderful family. But Iam coping, and getting through everyday. I hide my tiredness and look forward to each moment yet to come. I cherish these years, cause before i know it, they wont need me anymore, and i hate to think of that!!

Boedy Gavin Hannah

Well we had our son.. a shock to both of us, but such a wonderful shock it was. We cried many tears of happiness in that room and new our family was absolutely perfect in that moment. My water broke at 4:30 in the morning, and we arrived at the hospital at 5, girls in tow. Aubrie didn't want to be bothered cause she was still so tired, and Allie was oh so excited!! When we arrived I was checked right away to see how far along I was, and I was 6 cent. So i was well on my way, but honestly didn't want to suffer the pain, cause it was all in my back. So I opted for the epidural, which was heaven and made it all a breeze. At 10 I new something felt like it was ready, and when I told the nurse, she checked me and I was 10 cent. So I literally pushed twice and he was out. The cord was wrapped tightly around his neck that the doc couldn't even pull it over so he had to cut it there and blood squirted everywhere... I was still waiting and wondering at that moment what we had cause no one said, and finally after minutes, Riley said, "it's a boy", and we began crying together. It was an amazing moment, just like the last two were. We couldn't decide on a name for along time, but when we finally did we knew. Boedy Gavin, named after Riley's middle name, he weighed in at 7lbs 5oz, and 20.5 inches long. He was born at 10:12 in the morning, and he is a perfect baby. Recovery is going well.... i had the blues yesterday and cried alot most of the day, but that's also cause it was Allie's third birthday, and I just couldn't believe she was three already.

Life so far is great, he sleeps, eats, poops, and when he is awake he just looks around and listens for the girls. He barely moves and I don't understand where all those kicks came from inside..lol.. He is another angel sent to us, and i love him so much. I still can't believe I had a boy, and am getting so excited to go shopping for him, cause Iam sure enjoying all the cute little boy outfits. The girls love him to death, we spend many hours of the day taking turns holding him, and Aubrie does so well. She is very gentle and always asks.. "hold it"!! Allie always has to check and see where HER baby is..lol...

All in all, life is perfect right now. I have three wonderful little ones and feel so wonderful now that I can move around and bend over, and bath the girls, and climb my three flights of stairs without having to stop for a break. Life is perfect!!!

11 Days

I can't believe it.. I can't believe that at any moment I could have a baby.. to say the least iam terrified, never thought i would be, but I remember every moment of pain last year when I had Aubrie. I just pray all goes well. Allie is getting very excited, as she see's the baby chain is very short, and knows its coming fast. Aubrie lifts my shirt all the time and says' "baby sleepin", but not so sure if she understands.. This morning Allie came in on me getting dressed, and said "big belly mommy", I thought it was so cute!! Lets just say iam SO LOOKING forward to NOT being pregnant. I started putting away my maternity clothes, I plan on hibernating this winter..lol, and I will be ready to go come spring. We also bought a 5th wheel so Iam so excited about that as well, but sucks we can't use it till spring.

Well I was in the doc on monday and he said my cervix was very soft, so guess we will c what he says this Monday.. Ihave contractions all the time, so I wonder if this go round will be alot harder to tell cause I've had them so frequently. I really hope I can make my friend Andrea's wedding, which falls on the 29th, but if not, thats fine with me as well, cause i'll be enjoying a little baby either way!!

Soon

Well Iam just about 37 weeks, and soon enough another little human being will enter this world. A baby I will nurture and love, and take care of every day. Iam scared, sad, terrified, excited, and happy all at once. Iam sad cause it feels as though the girls are sensing that soon there will be another member to the family. There so clingy lately, they want me me me, and they want me to hold them and snuggle and it's hard with this belly in the way. Allie is very excited, especially when she See's me take another link off of our baby chain everyday, but I am still sad, knowing that any day, any time, or even when they wake in the morning, someone could be there saying, "you have a new....baby".. and it saddens me for some reason. #3.. wow, I can't believe it. I can honestly say I never dreamed of having three kids, and wow, soon enough it will be happening.

I have been having lots of contractions every day, and I can feel things are alot different down below..lol.. Just my body preparing for when the day happens. The baby has defiantly dropped into place already, and I finally got my appetite back, which sucks cause now i actually want to eat, and who wants to gain a ton of weight at the end of there pregnancy.. NOT ME.... So far no stretch marks, so I want to keep it that way..lol...

We attempted pregnancy pic's last night, and lets just say, all was HELL... The kids just weren't in no mood to smile, or cooperate... I was disappointed, espescially in case this is our last. But oh well, what can u do right!!

Well one of these next posts will be the baby news, I can't believe it. The main things Iam praying for, is a good delivery..and doctor... it NOT happening during the night, and not too too fast..lol... Everyone pretty much thinks we are having a boy, a few friends say girls, and Riley and I, well he's hoping boy, and me.. Iam leaning towards boy, just cause I know how much he wants one.. But seriously, Iam thinking boy... But would love to have another girl as well. Guess we will know soon enough!!

It's Been A While

Last night I went to my room after 10 and looked at the crib we just set up. We lost pieces to our other one, so had to go purchase another one. What timing, but thankfully we found one, and it's set up and looks beautiful. The girls helped us, and had a blast setting it up. Allie is so excited for the baby to come, every day she asks if today is the day.

I starred at the crib lastnight, and just burst into tears. Sobbing extremely loud and could barely catah my breath. I cried cause Iam soon to be having baby number 3, and Iam scared. I cried cause I can't believe Allie will be 3 in December, and it just seems like yesterday we were setting up the crib for her. I cried cause I somedays just want her to be my little baby, and now soon I will have 3. I cried cause life just passes by and there is no slowing it down. I cried for all the times this past year I have been to tired to play with the girls cause of this other baby taking over my body and I felt guilty. I cried cause I didn't know if I wanted this in life, and now look where Iam.

Riley came in a while later and wondered what was going on. I told him some stuff, and we cried together. He said he knows how I feel, and how Allie and Aubrie are so precious to us and how we both are scared about having three children under the age of 3. We cried cause our girls mean the world to us, and there's nothing in this life we would have ever done differently.

It's been a while, but it was needed. Iam excited to meet this little one and have the girls help out and love there new little baby sibling. Iam excited to be able to move easier and sleep better, and not be so drained of energy. I love my girls so much, and I know I will love this one just the same, but Iam just scared. Life with two little ones is hard, and knowing Iam adding a third little one in a months time, is crazy to think.

Mothering

I decided to blog about mothering, because it seems lately, I have been having these mothering chats with my girlfriends, and it seems to be a great topic, because..gee.. we do it every day.

I get asked numerous times how I make it through a day, and I laugh sometimes when asked. Everyday is different that's for sure. I am sure if you ask any mother how life was with little ones, they'd say the same things. Some days are filled with fun and playing and joy and laughter, while others we are ready to sell our children to anybody who is willing to take them. Like I said a few blogs back, nobody said mothering was going to be hard, and it sure is. Especially when there little. I find many days I wish I could just crawl up on the couch under a blanket and sleep the entire day away, and some days i have tried, even though the girls r poking and prodding me to play and i just can't lift myself off of the couch to even see what there doing. I have alot of days where i feel guilty cause I didn't sit with them on the floor and play with them over and over, and i wonder if they'll hate me for that!! Every mother has it hard, and the thing that frustrates me most, it how men don't understand half of the days we go through. Sometimes I just want 2 minutes to phone Riley and speak with an adult cause Iam having a terrible day, rather than having your two year old asking you why your sad mommy... And sometimes those two minutes you do get to speak to him, they don't understand how much it means to you, but yet when they get home you are waiting for them to ask how your are doing, and they have totally forgotten about how terrible your day was. Men don't understand the concept of being a mother, and the things we go through in a day. I want to know the last time a man did dishes, laundry, diaper changes, nursed, washed, and swept floors, vacuumed, played with kids, made break feast lunch and supper all in one day. Men get frustrated being around there children for 20 minutes and they need there escape, but yet when it comes to us needing to get out for a break, they don't understand why. And the one thing I hate most is when Riley does get home, and it's all wonderful and exciting for the girls and me, we have supper and then he wonders off to the bathroom for an hour...errrrr..... My time in the bathroom is maybe two minutes, and while Iam finishing Iam usually yelling don't touch that, leave that alone, get out of here...

Mothering is a hard thing. I have had many days where i break down and cry, and wonder how Iam going to do this for the next how ever many years. But we do, we get through it. I still laugh and sometimes it's encouragement to get me through my day when I think of what my sister told me last week. She found a piece of paper she was going to write out for her husband about what she goes through in a day. And this was when her kids were 5, 3, 2 and a baby. She started at 5am when the baby woke, and it went on and on, but the funny thing was she only got to like 8:30, and it was already a page long. I laugh everytime i think of it, cause it's so true. She even wonders how she made it through those days, cause now her kids are, 10, 8, 7 and 5... When your kids are little, you are tired from either a restless night, or just the fact of doing everything around the house. Husbands come home and think being around there kids is alot of work, but they must forget about how laundry, and dishes and toilets and everything else gets cleaned around here. Some days I could just scream cause the toilet in our main bathroom needs to be cleaned, but like a man would ever notice something like that, even though it only takes two seconds, its two more seconds in a day I could be doing something else.

Alot of days I wonder why Iam even here, and how Iam going to make it to there bedtimes. Sometimes I find myself counting down the hours till there is quietness, and I have even felt guilty some nights sitting here alone. Some days are hectic around here, but to me it's the little moments that matter most. Yah alot of days I might not sit and play blocks or barbies or color for hours, but then there are days i do, or what about the moments you hold them and tickle them and make them belly laugh so loud, or tonight when I was making supper we danced in the kitchen to the CD player cranked loud, and we danced for about an hour, and they had so much fun. It's the little moments like that, that might stick out in there minds when there older.

So just to every mother, just know we all are going through it. We all have our tough days, even if it's for 7 in a row, we all are going through it. Many days we want to pull our hair out, or scream or get rid of our kids, but we know deep down how much we do love them and need them. We are mother's, doing the hardest job on this earth... Whatever it is that gets you through the day, whatever works works. Whether it's 5 dvd's in a row, or locking them in there room for quiet time for 20 minutes, whatever works. But the main thing we really need to do, is talk to other mothers. Whether it's a 5 minute phone call with screaming kids in the back round and kids fighting to get your attention, it's those 5 minutes that might get you though your day cause another mother is going through it to. Just know my ear is always willing to listen, and my door is always open. And As for mothering, just know like I said we all are going through it.. even though it might not show when we are out and about, we are, we really truly are. But also remember someday we will look back upon these years, and forget all we went through, and our kids will be grown and we may be sitting at home, lonely wanting them back. Enjoy your time as best you can, but get yourself out of the house as well, it really truly helps!!

Tired

Well I can finally admit it... I am tired, tired of being pregnant actually. I find it hard to believe that I still have less than 8 weeks to go. I sometimes feel i wont make it, things are difficult now, how am I ever going to last another few months. I am beat... by the end of the day i can barely walk, or let alone keep my eyes open. I am thank ful the girls go to bed at 7, that is a huge help, and I am able to get things done. But still even when morning comes, I am tired, and here they r geared and ready to go.

I can't bend down well anymore, even though I try I usually get a leg in the rib and it really hurts. So lately I have been rewarding Allie with tic tacs if she cleans all the toys up. And she does. It's nice, cause it's just too hard for me.

I finally was able to get myself down into the crawl space, and find the baby things. I keep forgetting and am almost shocked when I think I am having a baby next month..ahhhh

So i went down there and found the car seat, the winter thing for inside the car seat, washed it all, also the crib bedding, washed it all as well. I found half of the mobile, and still can't find the receiving blankets. I am trying to get alot done, because I know once the third arrives, there wont be much time to do what I can now. I actually finished Allie's b-day invites tonight, so when the time comes for them to be mailed, they will be done. I am well over half done Christmas shopping so that a huge relief for me as well.

I guess I am just looking forward to meeting this little person already.. who has been kicking me all day, mostly nights..lol.. and wow, the kicks take my breath away. The baby has hiccups more than 10 times a day, so that is getting annoying..lol.. I am anxious to just be able to do things again, and not have this belly in the way. And even though the sleepless nights are yet to come, i think it will be a different kind of tired.... one I can handle... Right now, I feel out of breath, I pee 2 0r 3 times every hour, and I feel like a beached whale..lol... So I think no matter how rough the nights might be.. i will feel some what better!!

Being A Mom

I got asked the other day if i like what I do... i obviously didn't hesitate, but answered with a very reassured "Yes", with a laugh behind it. But followed with the question, "meaning staying home EVERY day??".. Somedays trust me I look at the outside world, and miss getting ready to go some where, putting make-up on and dressing nice, instead of laying in a t-shirt and sweats all day, no make-up on, with un brushed hair. I long to look good for some one or something, but the fact that I have two toddlers, that don't notice make-up or a nice shirt, doesn't really much matter to me when Iam at home with them. I sometimes long for being away from my kids, just to have that moment where there so excited to see you when you do return and pick them up. I think about the days where my kids weren't in my life, and wonder what I did all day. I miss obviously being able to come and go as I please, because now it's more of a chore trying to leaving the house. Bending over to put on shoes in impossible now, and making sure i have everything packed in the diaper bag, from snacks, to suckies, to sippie cups, to diaper, wipes, wallet, cell phone..ect... It makes going out very tiring and not really worth it, especially if it's for one thing.

I miss the days where i only had me to worry and care about, and now I have to lives in my hands. I just can't lay through lunch if Iam not hungry, cause i have two mouths to feed, cause there always hungry. I just can't lay down on the couch for five minutes with out someone jumping on me or tossing a toy my direction cause they want attention, and someone to play with. I can't remember the last bathroom break I had where it was alone, the last shower I had where there wasn't banging on the door, or the kids ended up in the tub with me. I can't remember the last meal I ate warm, or even finshied, or should i say enjoyed...lol

My days are filled with happiness, sadness, anger, joy, love, worry, hate, fear, so many emotions. I have days where things are so wonderful around here.. yesterday I was so happy cause lunch was a success.. meaning they ate everything, no crying, no throwing food, I was happy and proud. I have days where I fall to the floor and cry, and wonder what mother can do this everyday, what mother can raise 8 children, and not go insane. I have most days where I just look at my girls and can't believe there mine, that there my creation, and there so wonderful and beautiful, and also many days where I would sell them to the next pedestrian walking down the street. From the crying cause of tiredness, or getting there way, the screaming cause of the fighting or the time-outs that sometimes continue on through-out the day. I have found myself looking at them in those moments, and crying along with them. Wondering again, how am i going to do this day in and day out for the next how many years.

As I looked across to my friend, I looked at her, and thought in that moment, how yes Iam very proud to be a stay at home mom. To watch my kids grow and learn and love and laugh, each and every day. Motherhood is a tough thing. If someone would've said that years back to me, I think I might've laughed and said "oh it can't be that hard". Everyday is a new day for me. I don't know what the day is going to bring, but all i ask for each day is strength and patience, and sometimes that doesn't always exactly happen. Everyday i wake to children either jumping on me or crying cause there already hungry, so it's out of bed and in the constant mommy mode.
I never dreamed of motherhood being this hard. Being in constant need of someone, and always having to be ready for the next moment. I think about life 20 years from now, and how I will be all alone. How these years I spent someday pulling my hair out, or teaching them endless new things, or the many play times we share together, there not even going to remember, and that makes me sad. I think about how some days I don't want them to need me or want me so bad, and that one day I will want them back and they'll be on there own, and not be in need of me.

I need to take this time and enjoy life, and motherhood. Everyday I question this, and I know the answers right there.. It's the best thing I have ever done.

10 weeks

I have 10 weeks to go, and some days I feel like Iam not going to make it. This pregnancy has taken a toll on me, probably cause I have been chasing a 1 and 2 year old around, and it's been alot different. I can't get down with them anymore to play, and bathing them is so hard cause our tub is so deep. It's been difficult, and I know these next 10 weeks always fly by, so I shouldn't complain. I started spotting yesterday which is odd for me, nothing like this has ever happened. I didn't go see the doc or nothing, and this morning it was there again, but as for now has stopped. I will go defiantly if it starts happening again.

Other than that life has been good lately. It was getting really tough there for a while, I felt like i wanted to close this chapter on my life, and run away. I hated me, and everything about me, and was very depressed. I called Riley many days crying, and needing him cause i felt all alone. Things are looking much better now. Iam alot happier, I have been taking some different vitamins, thats are to help with the moods, and the hormones, and the crazy thoughts, and it's totally awesome how great I feel since starting them. Iam much happier, calmer, and more lovable...lol... I feel great to say the least.

Iam starting to get nervous about this baby, but am praying not to be nervous, cause that always leads to not such good things. I think the reason Iam most scared, is cause i had a baby last year, and I remember it clearly. I mostly am praying it wont happen in the night, cause i have no where to take my girls, or no one to come over and watch them, and just praying for a safe and easy labor... I prayed and prayed last time with Aubrie, and all went GREAT!!

As for the girls, Aubrie says everything you can imagine. I accidentally said the SH*T word the other day, and well so did she. She is a very smart little girl. And Allie she is getting excited for the baby. She asks alot when the baby is coming out, and she know she gets to help me change and bath the baby. She is excited!! Anyways, I should be off to enjoy this wonder day!!

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Seven

That's what time my girls went to bed tonight. It was an afternoon of hell should I say.. Allie has skipped naps all week, and I think it's finally caught up to her. She gets so grouchy from 4 on, and tonight topped the charts. She cried, and whined, and cried and cried. I found myself slowing wanting to just open the front door and run. I couldn't handle it... and when Riley walked through the door, it was such a welcoming home to have a house full of crying. She didn't want him or me, or no one, what she wanted was her juice, and that's something she wasn't going to get. She will get it with supper after she eats some or most of her meal, but she wanted it before, and then she usually downs the entire cup and doesn't eat. So she didn't even eat supper tonight, because she cried and cried for her juice, and that was all she wanted, she was just so awful. It lasted all through supper, bath time, and even when we sat down to build blocks she continued with throwing them and being just plane bad. So at 7 she went to bed, and when I closed her bedroom door my hands covered my face, I fell to my knees, and I was so thankful I made it through. It was one of the worst days in a long time. I tried to contain my patience and anger, and did pretty good, but had a few moments where I fell through and just yelled. All I kept asking for was "Strength, strength to make it threw this day".

Life

Life has been mostly good lately. Some days I want to crawl in a hole and never come out, but for the most part, it's been good. Having to deal with real low blood pressure has been a huge issue for me, cause I am never this way. I am never able to just fall asleep in seconds, or just be tired ALL DAY LONG. A friend of mine said she had the same thing with her third, she said she wanted to sleep all day, and was so weak. Some days I can't even lift the girls, and the bathing thing is getting so hard now, cause we have such a deep tub, then I can't wash them. I know these next 3 months are going to take a huge toll on me.

As for the girls, there are good. We went through a spout of the runs here in the house. It started with Aubrie, then me, then Allie. I was very worried about Allie, since i have only potty trained her a month ago, but she did wonderful. She even woke last night at 12 and went pee, so I defiantly know she is completely trained. Now I just have to push myself to work with Aubrie, but some times I find it difficult sitting on the bathroom floor for hours waiting for her to pee, when alot of the time it's a game. She has peed on the potty several times, but it's still hard to know when to try her.

We are renovating our bathroom just off our family room. It use to be all purple, even the toilet and sink, and walls..lol. I have painted already, And Riley is replacing the sink and counter top tonight, and the toilet with get replaced once we do the flooring, and buy a new shower for it as well. But my, it looks SO GOOD!!

So this weekend I am headed to Yorkton with my mom and sis, to do some shopping, have pedicures, go to the Casino, and see my nanny. I was there not that long ago, but just the fact that I get to be away from my girls, for the first night EVER... is so exciting to me.

26 weeks

Well it's been forever since I have blogged, so I figured its about time I do. Life has been good, and sure has been flying by. Iam 26 weeks pregnant already and can't believe in three months I will be adding the third addition to this family. Some days Iam totally freaked out cause having a 1 and 2 year old right now has been challenging enough. Allie is pretty much 100% potty trained which is wonderful. She still has the odd accident of pooping in her panties, even though alot of days she poops on the potty, sometimes she just doesn't make it. Aubrie is doing good to, and I know if I worked with her continuously she could be potty trained to, but i don't have that time right now. She pees after naps on the potty and loves sitting on it, and when Allie goes, gets so excited. So I know she will be easy to train. She is already repeating what we say, I can't believe how smart she is. She is a wonderful little girl.

As for me, Iam so tired most of the time. I have had really low blood pressure with this baby, which is a first for me, so you pretty much could sleep all day. I could close my eyes at any moment and be out. So it's been pretty tough. Iam less patient, more irritable, and alot more bitchy. It sucks, it really does. So I can't wait till Iam back to me. I can't believe it is soon to be September, thats just shocking to me.

We still love our house so much, and slowly are going to start doing reno's. The fact of being home all day long, I want to change things..lol... i just changed the living room around down by the fire place. I like change..lol... As for cleaning the place, my goodness, it honestly takes a full day. I usually am doing laundry as well, but the vacuuming is crazy, takes hours. Luckily we finally bought a new vacuum that I just love, and I also taught Allie how to vacuum the stairs, so that helps. But I still Love how big it is, and how much room we have. I love that I can be somewhere and not know where anyone else is.

Allie starts dance the beginning of September, so Iam excited about that, and she is to. I want to put them in swimming as well, but will wait till this baby is born first. I think we also finally are narrowing down our names for the boy and girl, but still not 100% sure. I still can't believe i only have 14 weeks to go.. crazy... Anyways off to bed..

1 Week

In one week, or even less, she was completely potty trained. I am so proud of Allie. I can't believe she is out of diapers, and a big girl now, it all happened so fast. She has no more accidents, and has done more than wonderful. Now Aubrie is next and she already says "pee pee potty".... I am just so happy and proud of my little girl. here is a pic of her, she knows where the sucker cupboard is..lol

Bye bye Diapers

Well it's been forever since I have blogged, it's not that I didn't have the time, it's just I didn't really feel like it..lol But I decided to today. Well Allie has made another milestone in her life, and that is saying goodbye to diapers. On Sunday I told her they don't make diapers anymore, and she has been in panties ever since. She has peed on the potty everyday, and has had accidents, but is doing so well. She even tells me now she has to pee and then goes on the potty. Iam so proud of her, and so proud I have one out of diapers. Now Iam working on Aubrie as well, she is so smart, and is in the learning stage that I know she will catch on soon. She loves sitting on the potty, and soon will catch on. It would be awesome to only have the baby in diapers, wow that would be nice.

Well our camping trip was good, it was a long time, 10 days is alot to go camping, especially the first time with two girls, and me being pregnant. Everyday I wanted to come home, but managed to make the full trip. The reunion was good, nice to see everyone, then we headed to Edmonton, and spent a day at the west Edmonton mall. The girls loved it, they loved Galaxy Land, and Allie built a bear, which she named "Bella". The water park was crazy expensive, and we lasted an hour cause Aubrie had major diarrhea, so it was everywhere... But the girls loved the hour we were there..lol We then headed to Drumheller, and camped in an amazing campsite for three days, did lots of fun sit seeing there, and had a blast. We then headed to Pike Lake and stayed there for a few days, which was wonderful as well. It was nice to come home though and have space..lol

Well Iam 22 weeks along, and am feeling good. Iam tired alot, but am doing well. Baby is moving lots and I can't believe I only have 4 months to go. And also next week I will be an aunty again, cause Sarah my sister-in-law is having a baby friday morning. So that will be exciting.

Anyways everything else is great!!

Update

Well it has been a long time since I blogged, and I can't say I couldn't find the time cause I sure can.. i just couldn't find much to write about.

We are loving our house very much, and loving the space, and all of the above. It was a real good move, and Iam much happier.

The girls are doing good, Aubrie is getting bigger everyday and getting her attitude/temper down really well. She knows when she wants to get her way, and when she gets bonked by her sister she lets out a howling cry. She is talking lots now, saying, puppy, horsey, papa, nanny, mommy, daddy, allie aubrie, hot..lots of things. She copies her sister all the time, and now knows when she has something she shouldn't, she runs and hides. She is eating everything now, loves cucumbers and strawberry's the most. She only has a morning bottle and after supper bottle, and is a sweetheart. I love her to death.

Allie is doing good, still has no intention of using the potty what so ever. She talks of Bella and Alexa using the potty all the time, but she just doesn't want to. Some days i can't handle her poop anymore, that Iam gagging and just wish she would go on the potty, but I can't force her. She is defiantly still in the bonk your sister mode, cause she knows she gets a rise out of her mom, and well that Aubrie cries as well... And no matter the spankings or time outs, or whatever she gets, she just keeps pushin. She is in the mode these days where she always says" I don't like boys".. if we go to a play ground and there is boys there she runs back to me.. anywhere she sees boys she is afraid. And I tell her daddy is a boy, and noah, and Papa, and mommy might have a baby boy inside her, and she says "no", she only wants sisters.

Other than that, we r doing good. We r planning our holidays and leave on the 10th of July, we r going camping up near Edmonton till Sunday, then Monday going to Edmonton to take the girls to the water park, and will camp there for a few days or even head to the mountains. We r really excited!!

As for me, things have been stressful lately. I haven't felt the baby move, and Iam almost 18 weeks, and the doctors have tried many times to find the heart beat and still can't. I haven't had this problem before. Usually they just place the Doppler on, and it's there, but not this time. Yesterday I went again, and he went back and forth across my stomach for over 10 minutes, and nothing. Iam worried, even though they said don't be, but how can u not be. My Ultrasound isn't till the middle of July, so we have to wait till then. I just don't feel pregnant, i feel alot smaller this go round, and like Iam not growing. I try not to think about it. Yes I have had my days where I didn't want to be pregnant anymore, and I thought by having another this close I was crazy, but iam over that, and i really hope by thinking those thoughts, nothing came of it.

Other than that, Iam enjoying summer. I love being outside for the most part, except for the bugs, and ticks..errr... Allie had one stuck in her by her pee pee...yuck... Poor girl... anyways, Iam off to enjoy nap time!!

HA HA

Kids say the cutest things sometimes, so Iam here to post, what Allie said today that made me and Riley laugh so hard. I asked her "what does daddy do for work?" and she replied, "fixes cars"... pretty smart I thought. So then I asked, "what does mommy do for work?", and she replied, "spends money at the dollar store"!! We laughed so hard.. I was like.. "oh ok..thanks..."..lol

Life is Good

Well, just like i said, life is good, great actually. The move was a huge difference in my life, and Iam sure most would ask why. It's been great with the amount of space, I can actually do things when the girls r napping, i can even play my stereo loud in the family room, and they can't hear it upstairs. It's great, I love all of it, the convenience of crossing the street to either go to Dairy Queen, dollarama, Extra Foods, the movie theaters, my doctor, Rogers Video.and so much more, so many things. Iam much happier, sleeping at night now, the girls even are different here cause they have there own space. Iam loving every minute of it, and I look forward to living here many many years. We had a fire the first night we stayed here, it was so nice. I already am thinking of Christmas time and how cool it will be to hang the stockings above the fire place on the mantle... Iam just loving all of it, i can't even explain how happy Iam. The baby is moving lots, I got for my next doc app on the 9th, and hopefully hear the heart beat then. I love the fact that I can just cross the street to go to the doc... And shoppers being open till midnight is great too. I don't know the last time I actually drove any where cause why would i need to, unless i go visit a friend or family. Anyways i should be off.. just wanted to post that things r SO GOOD, and IAM SO HAPPY!!!!

Last Posting

Well this will probably be my last post here at this house. The next few days are going to be crazy. My mom is coming in to help so iam really looking forward to that, and Allie is going to stay at Auntie Sarah and Uncle Wil's Saturday, she is so excited. Things are getting closer everyday and i can't wait.

Well 4 years ago this July we moved here. I remember when we looked at this house, we instantly loved it, and purchased it at about midnight. We were so excited to have our first home together, never even thinking once about having kids here. We moved here 3 months after we married. We had many good times here.. many party's and memories we wont forget. We had fights, our share of good times, and the times that will always stick in our heads..the moments we found out we were expecting. We had two beautiful girls in this home, and now we venture to a new place and start the journey all over. Iam excited, some days scared, and a little nervous, but I truly am excited. Iam looking forward to the amount of space we will have and the girls having there own room. Iam looking forward not having to whisper all the time, or say "shhh" half the time when people r here. I just can't wait anymore.

So we will say goodbye to our home on 1347 Aberdeen Street. And someday we will have stories to tell the girls about how they were born here. Allie lived 2 years here, we lived 4 years, and Aubrie lived 1. Someday we will drive past this house when there older, and say this is where it started.

Well it has been a busy week. I ventured out last night with my sister cause I needed a break. I needed to be away from the girls, and I needed Riley to put them to bed for once instead of me always putting them to bed then going out. And just to let u know, I enjoyed every minute of the few hours I was gone.

I will post some pics of the girls this week, Allie wants to be a doctor when she grows up, and also the girls were picnicking. I will also post a picture of me, 3 months along. I can feel the baby move lots already. With Allie i was about 18 weeks along, Aubrie 12 weeks, and this one as well 12 weeks... It's nice to get that feeling, and start having a connection with the little one inside. I haven't even heard the heart beat yet, but I defiantly feel the baby move lots. Anyways, I will begin posting again, in the new house.. YEY..wish me luck.. I can't wait!!

5 More Days

Well lets just say I am getting so excited. Iam most excited for the amount of space we will have.. going from 800 to 1740 square feet will be an amazing difference, and I can't wait. We move this Saturday. Most of the stuff, as much as we can, we have till the 30th to be out of this house, but we want to be in there probably by the beginning of next week. Iam getting all the carpets cleaned on Monday morning, and Saturday I want to paint a few rooms, and organize and put away as much as I can. I hope this week goes by fast, and I think it will cause of the holiday...

Well the weekend was good.. Aubrie had a great birthday. I can't believe my little girl is one already. I can't believe 9 months ago I had a baby, and again Iam 3 months pregnant. She loved her cake so much, ate a huge piece, and she did well opening her gifts and walking amongst everyone. It was a nice day, windy but everything went good.

We then went to Dilke Saturday night and Sunday just for a break. It was nice to get away from all the boxes and the house being a mess.

Potty Training

Needless to say, it has been difficult. Alot of people say girls r so easy to train, and some say boys are..ect...ect.. But I honestly think every kid is different. And that you defiantly can't force a kid into it.

Allie is extremely smart...she tells me when she has pooped, even before she has pooped, and asks to be changed, and so on. But when it comes to potty training she wants nothing to do with it. She sees me use the bathroom, and has seen other kids as well, but still has no interest. I took her diaper off the other night and wouldn't put it back on and she had a screaming fit cause that's how bad she wanted it on. So after a while I put panties on her, and sent her outside with her dad. Well of course she peed, was walking extremely funny, but it didn't bother her what so ever.

I have tried all the tricks of the trade, I have been persistent and tried every 20 minutes, I even had her on there once for over an hour, and once she came off she peed. But to top all things, her new phrase when you ask her if she wants to go pee on the potty is.. "my pee pee is sleeping"!! Iam not sure how she came up with that one, but thats what she says.

So I hope before the baby comes she will be potty trained. I really don't want 3 in diapers. Iam hoping this summer I can do it...

Life

Well what can I say but Life is SO BUSY right now, as most of you I'm sure understand. From packing boxes, to organizing, to going to see lawyers, and bank appointments, to finishing all my clients before we move, to planning Aubrie's first birthday party... I can say I haven't had much time to think lately, or slow down. For one, when your house is undergoing this move..everything is a mess and un-organized, so it's been difficult. I usually love making cakes, and I have already packed away my cake pans, so needless to say Iam buying Aubrie's first birthday cake.

I can't believe a year ago I was 9 months pregnant, and right now Iam 3 months pregnant. Crazy how time goes, and what can happen in a year. I have been extremely tired and moody, and not really enjoying this pregnancy so far. iam almost dreading it, which is sad cause I loved being pregnant with the girls. Iam hoping a change happens soon.

iam so excited to move, and have the space we are about to have. Iam so excited to have a great big kitchen, a master ensuite, and especially having the girls room upstairs, away from the noise.. no more saying shhh to Riley all the time. Iam so excited that it almost seems these next days are going so slow. But I know soon enough it will be here....

The girls r good. Aubrie started walking about 2 weeks ago, and is saying alot more things to. She can wave bye bye, play patty cake, hold one finger up for one years old... She can say her name, Allie's name, happy, night night.. She is such a happy giggly baby. She is wonderful, and I can't believe she will be one in a few short days.

Allie has been, well lets say Allie..lol.. Somedays good, some bad, some great, some worse. But Iam managing to get through everyday as I can. Mothers Day was good, Riley took us all out breakfast that day, we drove around the city just to say we got out, he then made me lunch and also took me for supper. So it was a nice day off. I also made him change the girls the entire day..haha... my day off... Anyways best be off the girls r waking..

Our New House

Well we bought a house.. 1740 square feet, a four level split.It has 5 bedrooms, and 3 bathrooms!! Iam so excited, and we move in just three short weeks. I can't believe how fast everything is going, but in the end it will be so worth it... Too much to do, and so many boxes around..lol... Here are a few pics of it..

BYE BYE HOUSE

Well our house, I can`t believe it is officially sold, it`s crazy. It was on the market for 4 days, and I never dreamed it would go that fast, just cause it has slowed down alot. So now there is no turning back.

We went house hunting tonight. Allie loved it, we all did actually. She tells everyone she is moving to a bigger house, it`s so cute. Plus most of the houses had toys, so she sure enjoyed that!! One house she scooped up this huge rock from there rocks on the front yard, and had to carry it in her pocket the whole time, except it kept falling out, and I didn`t want this rock to end up in someones house..lol Needless to say it made the journey home and sits in the van.

The first house we looked out was the one we liked most I`d say. It was 1116 square feet. We promised each other no less than 1100, and it`s crazy how some of the layouts really make the house look way bigger than they actually are. It didn`t have a garage but was a good price, so one could be built.

The second third and fourth were no`s.... all nice but nothing I really wanted, and the fifth seemed WAY TOO BIG.. it was crazy, it was 1200 but it was a bi-level, but not like any bi-level I have seen before. I just felt like I would loose my kids in it..lol

We had our eye on one that is 1720 square feet, but it`s not the location we like, and i have to take into consideration this could be a place where the girls grow up, possibly leave home in... we just arn`t sure whats going to happen. So I want to think of that while buying.

We had fun though, I love house hunting, we loved it before when we looked, it`s just funny how now we have 2 kids in tow. I`m excited, and already wanting to pack..lol Trust i need to, I have so much stuff!! Anyways I will keep you updated once we find the one!!

I cried today

A real good cry. A cry I needed to cry cause I haven't had a moment in life to slow down lately, and think about anything. I cried because I looked at my two girls, and thought about how lucky Iam. There my life, my angels, my world. I cried cause right now we are going to be moving to a new home, and maybe it's going to be the home where they grow up, and go to high school, and maybe even leave home in. I cried because I thought of my own mother, who went through the very same thing, letting each one of her children go, and praying each day they would be safe. I looked at my mom yesterday and thought about all she has been through in her life, and her own mother, all she went through as well. Then I thought about my friends mom, one that comes to mind, and I cried even more. I sometimes think my life is hard, but I can't imagine to be going through what one of my friends is going through right now. I wish I could hug her and tell her it's going to be ok..but really is it?? Knowing your mom might pass on, I don't think it's ever going to be ok....

I've realized life needs to slow down...one day I will look back upon these years and wonder where they went, and wish to have them back. Enjoy each day, cause before you know it, they will be leaving home!!!

I've added a video...it's a great song, talking about mother's and daughters, and stay at home mom's. Be prepared to grab a few tissue's.. you'll need it!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CeEEMRQjW8

Things Change

Well as you know I haven't blogged for a long time. Life has been busy and full of many new life changes and surprises. We decided to move, and as most of you know our house is for sale right now. We listed Wednesday afternoon. We decided building on is going to be a hassle and all it will be is an addition and not much more extra room, and the price of building on was going to be the same as moving and having a huge down payment. We are excited and scared about finding another place cause this is our home. This is where it started, and this is home to the girls. But we are excited because we are ready for a bigger house. It's getting tight with the girls, and with the baby on the way, it's only going to get tighter.

Well I went to the doc this week and he said I have very low blood pressure, told me to take it easy, cancel my gym membership, and to slow down. I laughed...cause how can a mother of two toddlers do such a thing. My girls keep me moving all day long till bedtime, then it's time to clean clean clean. And now with doing showings, i have no time to have a messy house, and sometimes have a 30 minute notice for when someone is coming to view. It has been tough and hard, but I know and pray this wont go on for weeks. I have been so tired lately, and it's due to my low blood pressure, but I could close my eyes at any time and be out...and that's not like me.

Well I'm hoping someone out there loves our home and purchases it soon. I'm ready to start looking but we can't till we sell... hopefully something good comes out of this weekend.

Anyways off to do hair...it will slow down soon..lol...

What a Beautiful Week

The weather has been amazing this week, and we have been outside mostly every day. It did rain Tuesday but I met Dayna and Andrea at Chucky Cheese, and had a good time there.. I have been very tired this week, and trying to take each day as they come. Some days I think "how am I going to be able to do this.. three kids".. But i always remember how different you feel when you are pregnant..

I have had a sore throat all week, and it has turned into a cough now. But it's one of those coughs where u can't cough cause it hurts too much. It's nothing major, and it's getting better everyday!!

We are taking Allie to the monster trucks on Saturday night. We are really looking forward to it, and I can't wait...

As for the rest of the week, just hanging low, cleaning the yard this weekend. Right now the draftsmen is here again measuring more stuff. Iam getting excited to see the plans next week. Anyways gotta run he needs me..lol..bye

Holidays

Well our holidays were great, but it's always nice to come home. Especially travelling with two small children, who need diaper changes, feedings, nap times..ect..ect... But you learn to make do. They napped when they were tired, and we made do with the rest. Bed times were good, except Aubrie is teething these days again, so the nights she cried some.. but atleast Allie slept through it. She sleeps like her daddy....hears nothing. Aubrie sleeps like me... hears everything.

It was fun, we did alot of swimming, and shopping and touring around. We bought the girls bunk beds.. Nice wooden ones that come apart, we bought a new high chair that's amazing.. it does so many things, and one huge thing I wanted was for it to fold up, and it does. Plus it was only $49.00. Things r so cheap down there it's crazy!!!

The girls had a good time, and Allie even got to meet Dora and Boots in the mall which she talked about for days and still does. She was in amazement. Lets just say it was alot of fun, and I'm sure we will be going again soon.

As for me, I'm coming up on 8 weeks, and wow I feel huge and so out of it already. I feel like I really don't know how I'm going to make the next 7 months, and am beginning to really not like this pregnancy so far. I feel fine, like no sickness or nothing, but I can hardly breath, and I feel way larger then I should for 8 weeks. But hopefully it passes, and I feel better soon.

So we have obviously decided we have to make a move in our life, whether it's moving, or building on, cause we r getting too small for this house as it is. We looked at an acreage near Disley, but we didn't like it in the end. We contemplated moving, got our house appraised for an amazing amount, but the turn around.. to buy another house is crazy. For what we want is anywhere from $300,000 to $350,000... just sickening to move under those conditions. So today I had a contractor out. Someone Riley knows well, and had him look at my ideas and plans, and everything went great!! He said all will work well, they will draw up the plans and we will go from there. The should begin by early summer and should take no more than a few months to complete. So I think we are headed that route. We would be adding on 400 more square feet. I'm getting so excited, and never dreamed it would happen this fast. He said it may even happen sooner, they just have to draw the plans and then get the permit, and it's the permit that sometimes take longer than normal. So I will know more details next week. They did all the measuring today and are coming back next week with the drawings. Iam excited.. yey!!!

Anyways.. have a great week....

Happy 4th Wedding Anniversary!!!

Well, 4 years ago today, I said I do, to a man I will love till the day i leave this earth. Riley is my best friend, my soul mate, and the reason Iam here today!! I love you honey.. even though he doesn't read my blogs... he knows it!!! We are off to Minot today... bye!!

Doing Better

Well over the weekend I did alot of thinking and some what relaxing. We went to Quill Lake and had a goodtime. Saw friends at the wedding we attended, and it was just nice to get out, a different change from sitting at home. Allie danced most of the night, and Aubrie fell asleep by 9. It was fun, we were home around midnight. The funny things is, that it's completely winter there. It was -18 Saturday night, it snowed all weekend, u could skidoo for miles, they just have tons of snow. Then when we drove home on Sunday, we hit plus 11 near Southey. Crazy difference.

I want to say thanks to some of my friends who took the time to email me personally and let me know your side of things, as well as offered to babysit the girls. That was SO thoughtful of the few of you that did that!! That's really what true friends are, so thanks again. But with spring here, and summer around the corner, the girls and I will be out alot more, and I'm really looking forward to it. Iam already feeling alot better this week. I've learnt how to calm my emotions, and that yelling isn't helping the situation. I've really noticed a difference in myself, and I hope it stays this way.

We leave for the states on Thursday morning our 4th wedding Anniversary!! We r all very excited to get away, do some shopping, and swimming, and just be together as a family.

Emotional

Well i can say this pregnancy has really taken a toll on me so far. From day one I think my spirits were lifted, I'm sad, depressed, and cry everyday!! It's crazy, but I don't understand what is going on anymore. I've been hiding my emotions from everybody, until now!! This week wasn't a good one, and I know this probably isn't the place to say, but sometimes blogging releases things from me..

Riley and i fought every night this week, and me, my temper has lost all control lately. I can't seem to take life at this point and was willing to end things a few times if I was brave enough. This city has been really getting to me, and this house, and the space, and just life in general. I'm tired of doing hair. I've never had a break. 2 weeks after Allie was born, I was working, 2 weeks after Aubrie was born, I was working.. the girls get upset when I work cause it's no attention to them. Aubrie is really a mommy girls, so it's hard trying to concentrate on hair and having a crying baby wanting mommy. Iam trying to being a mom, and have a business at the same time, and it's too hard. I'm letting ALOT go.. I've really had enough. I want to pack it all in, and just let it go.

Allie has been nutty this week, just going wild it seems, not listening, making TONS of noise when Aubrie is sleeping cause she knows... Aubrie wants mommy, and thats it, and I want to crawl in a hole and DIE....

I had a huge fight with Riley tonight, cause I just never get time for me. All my friends go out, and have fun, and go here and there, but me, I go EVERYWHERE with my girls. I never have me time. I loved going to the gym, and it's been months since i have gone, cause I can never just go with me, I have to take them along, and worry about how there doing in the daycare. I've never had more than a few hours to myself since they have been born. I'm couped up in the house, and I'm sick of my house. I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I would love to drink, and before I got pregnant I was damn close to it, but was thankful I didn't, and now can't and wont. I've been stressed more than I knew u could be stressed, and it is beginning to scare me. I'm thinking of.. well I'm just not sure what I'm thinking anymore.

I just needed to vent, don't worry bout me, u know yourself how this comes and goes, and it's life things..blah blah blah... I just feel like a walking time bomb lately, waiting to explode. but I'll be ok!!

April Fools

Well this is the first year in a long time I never got anyone. I usually get someone, but this morning, was a busy one. Up early, to organising and throwing out toys that r just junky ones and the girls really don't play with, to Aubrie having a huge fall. She was pushing the stool as she always does to walk, but lost her balance and fell back, holding onto the stool, so she now has her first black eye. She is doing good though.

Weekend was good. Quill lake has huge amounts of snow still, it's crazy. I went there with spring coats on everyone, and rubber boots on Allie thinking she could splash in puddles..lol...

I got to see my friend Kristyn and her girls Halle and Heidi. It was nice to have a visit with them. Sunday we drove to Dilke, and visited mom and dad, then back home that evening.

As for this week, these past few days I have been sorta taking it easy, feeling really good, and having a few pregnancy symptoms, like bleeding nose..only ever get this when I'm pregnant, and really sore hair. Ya sounds funny, but ti's so true. My hair hurt so much when I was pregnant with the other girls..lol Who knows, maybe another girl.. lol...

Iam Pregnant

Well, I can finally say it, yes Iam pregnant again, with baby #3. It happened far sooner than we thought, yes we did start trying this past month, but that was because we didn't know forsure how long it would take, and well didn't take long at all. I was later by over a week, 7 pregnancy tests later cause they all were a faint positive line, and even a negative urine test at the doc, it finally came back positive. I just knew. Iam never late, and when a few morning I was feeling nauseous, i was like.."uh-oh"... me morning sickness...never...

So yes, baby number 3, due November 30th. Iam excited, so is Riley, and well the girls don't really understand. Iam sure alot of people will think we r crazy for having them so close, but I always wanted to do that, and I just love being a mom. So another summer, pregnant, and actually I can officially say I have been pregnant for the last 4 years.. crazy I know!!

It's been great

Well the move was worth while, now I wish I would've done it long ago. But who's to know right. Some mornings have been earlier than normal, cause Aubrie seems to let out a cry at 6 am or sometimes even 5, so Allie thinks it's time for morning..lol But we put them both to bed together at night, and they go to sleep, and it's been so nice to have our room back. Last night we went out, just to get out of this house, we went to the mall, Riley and I got new RSZR phones, there pretty sweet. And Allie got some new clothes, we just had fun. Had supper there, let Allie lead the way so she felt pretty proud. It was nice.... A nice change.

So we have been trying to enjoy every bit of the nice weather as we can. We go outside lots, and the girls love it so much. Aubrie eats the rocks..lol.. but loves the swing. It's been great, and I already am looking forward to those warm days when we can be out ALL DAY LONG!!

Naps times are good, cause Aubrie naps in the morning, so that gives me Allie time, then Allie naps around 12:30, so that gives me Aubrie time, then Aubrie naps again after that!! It's a consistent day of napping, but I still am able to get out and do the things I need to before naps, or in between.. Aubrie wont fall asleep in the van unless she has her suckie, so i just take it away.... Allie has been napping in the afternoon in her closet...lol It works though.. I just set up her pillow and blanket in there and she loves it... not sure why, but she sleeps great in there, and goes right to sleep. Nice and dark maybe!!

As for that, every thing else is good!!!

Time to Relax

Well it's done. A long awaited surprise, that I was so excited for, and dying to finally ask.. "did u know about this", and the answer was NO. He had no clue. A busy last few months, stress about school and planning the party has finally payed off. It's done, and now i can sit back and relax. It was a good party, lots came, he was shocked with alot of faces he saw, and even teared up as we walked through the door. It was fun, and I'm so glad I did that for him.

Well once again I changed my hair color, now I'm back to dark brown. I was sick of the blonde and seeing roots, so lets just see how long i can keep this up before I add high lites..lol

Well i finally did it. I moved the girls in together, and lets just say, it's SO NICE to have my room back and it feels so big. It's actually going well. Aubrie usually has her nap first, then Allie after lunch, then Aubrie before supper, and as for bed, we put Allie down first, then Aubrie, and so far so good. Aubrie has woke a few times, but Allie just rolls over.. but this morning, Aubrie did cry about 6am, then went back to sleep, but that cued Allie to get up for the day. Oh well..

As for week, time to relax, mind is clear, and I am so happy it's done...

Hockey Is Done

Well we played 5 games within 4 days, and Sunday morning I could barely walk. And i had to play Sunday night yet. We lost out on the Tournament, but had fun, and played hard. Sunday, we had no goalie, so Riley opted to play, and did awesome. His first time, and I was so impressed.. he had over 50 shots on net, and I think only let 6 in.. we switched goalies half way through, so it was nice to shoot on him..lol... I scored a few times, and he also saved a few of mine to. We had a shoot out at the end of the game, and the only way you could get off the ice to change, was you had to score on him. Now my whole team says " I scored with your husband"..lol

The week is going fast, maybe cause Friday i know is a holiday and I have to get everything done before then. I have 75 people forsure coming, and people still saying there going to make it. It should be fun, and i really think he is going to be shocked!!

Anyways I best be off the girls are getting into everything while daddy is trying mount something in my kitchen.. CHOW

Being Two

Well what can I say, but the wonderful two's are once again striking. This week has been long, and it almost seems like since Allie got back from the farm, she's different. I'm not saying anything happened there, but wow, she has been awful this week. She is really pushing my buttons, and not listening. Even if the day consists of time outs and spanks, she just doesn't seem to care. It's awful, and I hate it, and can't wait for it to pass. I've been so tired myself(not sure why), but I honestly could lay down and have a nap each day, and a few I have, which isn't like me. I've been irritable, and just not patient with her. When we went to gymnastics she didn't listen, again ran away while in the class... see the thing is, Allie could go through the class like 3 or four times before one kid goes through it once, so technically if we did each course for the amount of time we get, she'd go through it, way too much, so she is bored by the time she has done it like 4-5 times..which is understandable..but still... I have Aubrie in one arm, and there Iam dragging Allie across the floor, while mothers are looking at me thinking.."what r u gonna do now".. It's hard, actually more work for me then her I think... So I will be looking forward to when it's done. Yesterday I let her finger paint for the first time, cause she always asks about it, so she had a blast..

Aubrie is growing way too fast. She still isn't walking which is fine, but does travel from furniture to furniture fast. She climbs onto her sister's bed, and is pretty proud of herself, but can't get off yet. She doesn't try to get off, which is a good thing, just whines till I get her.

As for tonight i have hockey, then Saturday 3 games, and Sunday night a game, so by Monday I should be out of it.. Anyways chow..

I PASSED

Well all that stressing, and pushing a course into one month payed off. I'm officially a nail technician...ooohh...ahhhh...lol I received my certificate today, and the graduation ceremonies r this weekend..lol.. no there not, but I did ask her and she just laughed.

The weekend was good, Riley and Allie went to Quill Lake Saturday after my exam, and I stayed back cause I had a trip planned the next day with my sister, Emmalee, my mom and Aubrie to head up to see my nanny in Theodore home. She has Alzheimer's..so the trip was kinda weird knowing know one knows we were coming to visit, but we all knew we were and that's all that counts. She looked scared, and sad when we first got there, walking alone in circles. She seemed to warm up to us very fast, and soon was jabbering away. Even if her words are mumble, we still talk to her like a person. She says the odd sentences fine, and laughs alot. She loves holding Aubrie, and you could see how happy she was that we were there. I miss her so much, and I can see the pain in my mom's eyes every time she is with her. I wish she was closer. In these pics, there is four generations, and the oldest great granddaughter, and youngest great granddaughter!!

Well this week I'm finally able to lay low. No more nails every night and no more studying.. i'm happy that part is done. I'm looking forward to this weekend cause I have a hockey tournament in Pilot Butte. Riley is going home again, cause there is a skidoo derby in Claire, and he really has been wanting to go ski dooing at least once this year. he is wanting to take Allie again with him, so we will see how the week goes, and what I decide... I missed her while she was gone, but I know she had alot of fun!!