10 weeks

I have 10 weeks to go, and some days I feel like Iam not going to make it. This pregnancy has taken a toll on me, probably cause I have been chasing a 1 and 2 year old around, and it's been alot different. I can't get down with them anymore to play, and bathing them is so hard cause our tub is so deep. It's been difficult, and I know these next 10 weeks always fly by, so I shouldn't complain. I started spotting yesterday which is odd for me, nothing like this has ever happened. I didn't go see the doc or nothing, and this morning it was there again, but as for now has stopped. I will go defiantly if it starts happening again.

Other than that life has been good lately. It was getting really tough there for a while, I felt like i wanted to close this chapter on my life, and run away. I hated me, and everything about me, and was very depressed. I called Riley many days crying, and needing him cause i felt all alone. Things are looking much better now. Iam alot happier, I have been taking some different vitamins, thats are to help with the moods, and the hormones, and the crazy thoughts, and it's totally awesome how great I feel since starting them. Iam much happier, calmer, and more lovable...lol... I feel great to say the least.

Iam starting to get nervous about this baby, but am praying not to be nervous, cause that always leads to not such good things. I think the reason Iam most scared, is cause i had a baby last year, and I remember it clearly. I mostly am praying it wont happen in the night, cause i have no where to take my girls, or no one to come over and watch them, and just praying for a safe and easy labor... I prayed and prayed last time with Aubrie, and all went GREAT!!

As for the girls, Aubrie says everything you can imagine. I accidentally said the SH*T word the other day, and well so did she. She is a very smart little girl. And Allie she is getting excited for the baby. She asks alot when the baby is coming out, and she know she gets to help me change and bath the baby. She is excited!! Anyways, I should be off to enjoy this wonder day!!