Workin Hard

Well, i gained 45 pounds when I was pregnant with Boedy, 45 with Aubrie and 25 with Allie.. Having two children was a piece of cake losing the weight, and Iam wondering if the third will be more challenging. Boedy is 7 weeks old only, and I have lost 25 pounds already, and still have twenty to go to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I've joined Volleyball, hockey, the gym, and am taking up spinning classes as well. I started two weeks ago, and haven't missed a day.. I am proud of myself. I even packed up the kidlits on those -35 days, and headed to the gym. It's been alot of fun, and nice to get out and get back in shape. Iam feeling great, and not yet going to try any pre-pregnancy pants on ...lol... Iam going to work super hard at getting the weight off.

I also have decided that with out routine I wont get through the day. I don't really have time to get behind cause getting caught up is alot harder. I make sure laundry is done every other day, instead of 5 big loads at once. I make sure dishes are done right after we eat, and that the kitchen is clean at all times. I have taken toys off the main level, and unless they bring some up to play thats fine, but they get chucked to the basement at the end of the day!! I lock the girls down in the family room while i make supper, so it's much easier while they r playing instead of hanging at my feet or trying to help..lol.. and thats been going great to. My routine with Boedy is great as well. And they all go to there rooms at 1 for naps, or ALlie who has quiet time for an hour or more. Things are alot less stressful for me, and it really breaks my days up, and also with keeping up with the housework while they nap, I never get behind. I feel great, am happy as can be, and am adjusting well to three little ones... well this week anyways..lol

One lady came up to me at the gym today after spinning class and was like.. " r these all your kids"... I always laugh cause it seems people always r asking that..lol.. And they always end with "busy girl"..lol.. Yes life is busy with a 7 week old, 20 month old, and 3 year old.. but it's all worth it!! Most days anyways!!..lol

House Reno's

We have been doing some house Reno's.. First we started off by redo-ing the bathroom on the level by the fire place...(the family room). When we moved in the whole thing was purple including the toilet, sink, walls, ect.. So that's what started it.. I repainted it all, Riley replaced new counter top, sink, toilet, new flooring and is now in the process of putting in a new glass corner shower..can't wait!! (glad to have a handy husband who can do EVERYTHING)
Second we redid the master bathroom cause it wasn't so pretty as well... I painted, he again put in a new sink and new flooring, and counter top!
And I also fit time in to redo the girls room.. They will be sharing a room shortly when I put Boedy in his own room. So it is done, and I absolutely love it, as do they!!

I dit it

This weekend has been a first for a long time. RIley and i are always busy with family, either us coming or going, or our family coming or going and this weekend we stayed home and enjoyed being a family ourselves. A first for a long time. We needed it, more than ever and it was wonderful. Saturday night we sat and talked, a talk we needed to do years ago. Something thats been eating at both of us, but no one has ever been the first to open up. Iam not sure how it exactly started, but Riley just said how he wished he could turn back time and change all that happened. Meaning when we first got married, it was a tough rocky road, and it almost ended. Due to one thing.. Alcohol. I choose alcohol over Riley and it almost ended things, and he said he wishes he couldv'e been there more and helped more. But it wasn't his fault, it was mine. I was leading a different life, heading down the wrong path, and it was not getting me no where except in trouble. He said if it wasn't for my family, we probably wouldn't be together today. And then he said the words I remember hearing years back, that only hit me deep in my heart once again...."you broke my heart Cari".. Something you just don't want to hear from your husband. We hugged and cried and talked more and more. I ache inside each day because of that pain I put Riley through, and there's nothing we can do about that except move forward now and look towards the future.

But lastnight, something truly wonderful happened inside of me. I finally dit it. I finally accepted that I have quit drinking. Before it was just there, something I said or thought about, even still thought about having drinks quite often. But last night it hit me hard. I accepted that Iam done... done forever. Alcohol is was almost ended my life, my marriage, and maybe there wouldn't be no Allie Aubrie or Boedy here if I didn't quit. I will laugh now instead of get nervous inside when someone asks me why I quit, and if I truly will never have another drink. Why would i drink again? I might as well say goodbye to Riley if I do. It's not worth it, not worth the pain the two of us went through. And one drink in my hands will just never happen, cause it will only lead to one more. Iam done, it's been 4 years this March that i had my last drink, and I can honestly say Iam proud. Proud to say I have quit. I have nothing wrong what so ever about any body else drinking, thats there life, and something they can control alot better than I did. But Iam proud that I have finally accepted it, and now it's time to live a life where Riley deserves every ounce of my heart.. I love him to death, and would never want to live life without him.

A day in the life of ME

2am...Allie goes pee. 4am...Feed Boedy. 7am...Feed Boedy. 7:15am...allie goes poop(and Aubrie wakes up). 7:30am...Mommy showers(for 2 minutes). 7:45am...breakfast time. 8am...clean kitchen, do dishes, and sweep floor. 8:30am...vacuum living rooms. 8:45am...start laundry(5 loads to go). 9am...sit and play blocks with the girls. 9:20...playdoh time. 9:35am...Boedy wakes(change boedy and get myself dressed and ready).
9:45am...dress the girls. 9:50am...feed Boedy. 10am...get girls in there snow suits. 10:10am...Allie has to pee(undress her from snowsuit). 10:15am...Boedy poops(take him out of car seat change him). 10:20am...leae the house for the doc app(load them in stroller to walk there). 10:30am...doc app for Boedy and Allie. 11:15am...Arrive back home(undress girls, put boedy to bed). 11:20am...another load of laundry(and vacuum basement). 11:45am...make lunch for the girls(both girls are crying). 12:15...Boedy wakes, feed and change him. 12:30...feed girls, boedy is crying. 12:35...Boedy pooped, change him, then Riley calls. 12:39..Aubrie dumps macaroni everywhere, Allie goes pee again. 12:41...throw clothes in dryer and another in wash. 12:41...Allie throws macaroni all over floor. 12:42...Change Aubrie and put her to bed, as well as put allie in her room for quiet time(first time EVER, but she went). 12:45...Sit with Boedy and have tummy time. 12:50 Ara calls. 12:55...Allie comes out of her room(i put her back in while she is screaming her head off). 12:58...I eat some yogurt, then go to the bathroom(which I was holding since before we left for the doc). 1pm...fold laundry. 1:15...Boedy falls asleep. 1:45...finish folding laundry. 2pm...Allie wakes up from a nap(first time in MONTHS). 2:05...Riley calls. 2:10...clean up macaroni from lunch time. 2:20...Boedy wakes up, and I make him a bottle. 2:30...Aubrie wakes up. 2:35...Feed Boedy. 2:45...Aubrie wants snack(I put her in her chair with abowl of peaches). 2:47...Boedy pooped(change him and refill wipe containers..Boedy pukes all over me). 2:55...Allie wants snack.. is crying cause her mouth hurts, wants milk, i giver her banana and milk. 3pm...dancing in the kitchen with the girls to the radio. 3:05...Book my spa day at envouge..can't get in till feb 5th.. (very sad). 3:10...siting on kitchen floor with all 3 kids hanging out. 3:20...DVD time(air bud). 3:25...Sarah calls. 3:50...haircut shows up. 4pm...Aubrie decides she doesn't want to wear diaper anymore. 4:15..Boedy is fussing wants to be held. 4:25...start supper. 4:30...Allie and Aubrie want to pee on potties together(now Iam sitting on the bathroom floor holding Boedy, hearing supper burn). 4:40...Almost burst into tears(held back) and just realized I never ate lunch. 4:45...playing ring around the rosy with Aubrie in kitchen(while cooking supper) Boedy fussing, needing a nap. 4:49...put Boedy down for a nap. 4:50...Pumping breast milk in bathroom cause company is here on computer. 4:53...Aubrie bites Allie's ear(screaming breaks out). 4:59...Back to making supper, and remembered Aubrie was in panties..(i find her and she peed all over allie's bedroom floor)...

And thats when I quit writing.. The evening would have made it a novel... I did that so Riley could see a day in the life of me.. It was a long and crazy day, just like everyday is. I don't get a break, or a few seconds t relax or breath for that matter. I don't even know where the time goes these days and can't seem to gather my thoughts and think of all that happened in the day.. It's hard but I try my hardest to find time for all three of my children.. I know soon enough things will slow down.. and I guess I will be looking forward to the slower days, but as for now, I know that wont be happening anytime soon!

Growing Old

Well today we took the journey once again to go and see my nanny in Theodore home. It's always sad, and really hard to watch my mom cry cause of the pain she feels.. It's awful having Alzheimer's, I truly believe it's the worst disease out there. She doesn't know us, or even that we r there, and it hurts so much. I walked the halls of the nursing home, thinking about life, about how fast time truly does go. I looked at all the people in there and wondered as they watched me, what they thought of me. They looked at Boedy as i carried him in my arms, and probably thought about there lives and all they had gone through. The babies they may have had and the moments they spent on this earth. I looked at Boedy thinking he is going through what so many of those people in there are going through. They as well need to be fed, and diaper changed and taken care of. It's so sad, and it makes me so sad thinking that life has to end like that for some. I hate having to see my mother go through such pain knowing her mother doesn't even know her or us, or anything. I miss my nanny so much, I can't even imagine how she must feel.

I've posted a video that I made for my mom and dad for Christmas... lots of tears were shed that day, and every time i watch it, I really think about how fast life truly does go.

Make video montages at www.OneTrueMedia.com

New Security Features

Iam changing some security features on my blog, due to some readers I don't want to be reading my blog anymore.... Please email me at cariley@sasktel.net.. in order for u to be able to read my blog, cause I will add u to my readers list... Thank you... This will all be changed by next week!!!

Happy New Year

Wow, 2009.. I think I probably thought of this year back in the 90's, probably wondering what the world would be like. Time sure has past in the last 10 years, and I can't even explain how fast it has gone now that we have children. I know this is going to be a good year. Alot of camping with our 5th wheel, and not being pregnant this summer will be wonderful as well. Iam really looking forward to this year.

I layed in bed this morning at 5:30am listening to the grunting noises of my son. He grunts alot, as all my kids did, but I think he has topped the charts. It sometimes takes him over and hour to completely wake up so he grunts a little then goes back to sleep, then grunts some more, and back alseep.. and so on. I guess it's a heck of alot better than crying.. but it still wakes me... It's kinda funny, but also annoying in the middle of night. He is a perfect baby, he is so content and happy and just eats sleeps, poops, and looks at the girls and now has started smiling, his smile is so beautiful!!! I layed there thinking about my life, my family. How blessed Iam to have these wonderful children, and how lucky Iam also to have an amazing husband. I layed there and thought about life 3 years ago, and how so different it was. Sometimes I think how i feel I gave up so much in my life to be where Iam today, but that was the choice I made. I love being a mom. Yes alot of days are very difficult, don't get me wrong.. lots of days i break down and wonder how Iam going to keep up. I feel like Iam going non-stop all day long, and when bedtime hits, I sink into my bed and am fast asleep.

Yesterday ALlie only managed to changed about 12 times..She decided to not want to listen at all either and loved every minute of bugging her sister... Aubrie pooped everywhere in her panties.. because for some reason I choose to potty train when she happened to get diahria, which she never has... She also was in the mommy hold me mode ALL DAY.. and Boedy must have been going through a growth spurt cause he wanted to eat every 2 hours.. It was a non-stop day.... I didn't get a second to think or let alone go to the bathroom cause somebody was always in need of me. So needless to say when Riley walked through the door, I broke down and cried, and was frustrated, and all I needed was a great big hug. It's hard, very hard... 3 is SO different then two... Especially when there so close together and still so needy. Allie is a huge help though.. she even helps Aubrie get dressed, and runs for diapers for me or blankets, or the phone..anything i need she does. She even cleans up after her self which is so nice, and a huge help....

Iam tired... every day I push myself to make it through the next. I feel as if I have never been this exhausted in my life. I always have been one of those people who tries to do everything, and usually succeeds, or i push myself till I do succeed. I feel like nothing ever slowed me down in life and I felt like I could do whatever i put my mind to it. Well this has slowed me down. This has made me more exhausted then i could ever imagine. I know each day will get better, all I can hope for is that it's soon!!I swear if I could take a vacation somewhere right now.. it would be to a hotel to sleep..lol