Wow, 2009.. I think I probably thought of this year back in the 90's, probably wondering what the world would be like. Time sure has past in the last 10 years, and I can't even explain how fast it has gone now that we have children. I know this is going to be a good year. Alot of camping with our 5th wheel, and not being pregnant this summer will be wonderful as well. Iam really looking forward to this year.
I layed in bed this 
morning at 5:30am listening to the grunting noises of my son. He grunts alot, as all my kids did, but I think he has topped the charts. It sometimes takes him over and hour to completely wake up so he grunts a little then goes back to sleep, then grunts some more, and back alseep.. and so on. I guess it's a heck of alot better than crying.. but it still wakes me... It's kinda funny, but also annoying in the middle of night. He is a perfect baby, he is so content and happy and just eats sleeps, poops, and looks at the girls and now has started smiling, his smile is so beautiful!!! I layed there thinking about my life, my family. How blessed Iam to have these wonderful children, and how lucky Iam also to have an amazing husband. I layed there and thought about life 3 years ago, and how so different it was. Sometimes I think how i feel I gave up so much in my life to be where Iam today, but that was the choice I made. I love being a mom. Yes alot of days are very difficult, don't get me wrong.. lots of days i break down and wonder how Iam going to keep up. I feel like Iam going non-stop all day long, and when bedtime hits, I sink into my bed and am fast asleep.
morning at 5:30am listening to the grunting noises of my son. He grunts alot, as all my kids did, but I think he has topped the charts. It sometimes takes him over and hour to completely wake up so he grunts a little then goes back to sleep, then grunts some more, and back alseep.. and so on. I guess it's a heck of alot better than crying.. but it still wakes me... It's kinda funny, but also annoying in the middle of night. He is a perfect baby, he is so content and happy and just eats sleeps, poops, and looks at the girls and now has started smiling, his smile is so beautiful!!! I layed there thinking about my life, my family. How blessed Iam to have these wonderful children, and how lucky Iam also to have an amazing husband. I layed there and thought about life 3 years ago, and how so different it was. Sometimes I think how i feel I gave up so much in my life to be where Iam today, but that was the choice I made. I love being a mom. Yes alot of days are very difficult, don't get me wrong.. lots of days i break down and wonder how Iam going to keep up. I feel like Iam going non-stop all day long, and when bedtime hits, I sink into my bed and am fast asleep. 
Yesterday ALlie only managed to changed about 12 times..She decided to not want to listen at all either and loved every minute of bugging her sister... Aubrie pooped everywhere in her panties.. because for some reason I choose to potty train when she happened to get diahria, which she never has... She also 
was in the mommy hold me mode ALL DAY.. and Boedy must have been going through a growth spurt cause he wanted to eat every 2 hours.. It was a non-stop day.... I didn't get a second to think or let alone go to the bathroom cause somebody was always in need of me. So needless to say when Riley walked through the door, I broke down and cried, and was frustrated, and all I needed was a great big hug. It's hard, very hard... 3 is SO different then two... Especially when there so close together and still so needy. Allie is a huge help though.. she even helps Aubrie get dressed, and runs for diapers for me or blankets, or the phone..anything i need she does. She even cleans up after her self which is so nice, and a huge help.... 
was in the mommy hold me mode ALL DAY.. and Boedy must have been going through a growth spurt cause he wanted to eat every 2 hours.. It was a non-stop day.... I didn't get a second to think or let alone go to the bathroom cause somebody was always in need of me. So needless to say when Riley walked through the door, I broke down and cried, and was frustrated, and all I needed was a great big hug. It's hard, very hard... 3 is SO different then two... Especially when there so close together and still so needy. Allie is a huge help though.. she even helps Aubrie get dressed, and runs for diapers for me or blankets, or the phone..anything i need she does. She even cleans up after her self which is so nice, and a huge help.... 
Iam tired... every day I push myself to make it through the next. I feel as if I have never been this exhausted in my life. I always have been one of those people who tries to do everything, and usually succeeds, or i push myself till I do succeed. I feel like nothing ever slowed me down in life and I felt like I could do whatever i put my mind to it. Well this has slowed me down. This has made me more exhausted then i could ever imagine. I know each day will get better, all I can hope for is that it's soon!!I swear if I could take a vacation somewhere right now.. it would be to a hotel to sleep..lol
2 comments:
although you may be exhausted you are doing an awesome job as their mommy, I cannot believe how big all of them are getting already!
I love the pictures! You know you can call me between the hours of 1 & 3 when you are having a tough day, right? LOL
Kidding, I'm always here!
You are doing good Cari!
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