BYE BYE HOUSE

Well our house, I can`t believe it is officially sold, it`s crazy. It was on the market for 4 days, and I never dreamed it would go that fast, just cause it has slowed down alot. So now there is no turning back.

We went house hunting tonight. Allie loved it, we all did actually. She tells everyone she is moving to a bigger house, it`s so cute. Plus most of the houses had toys, so she sure enjoyed that!! One house she scooped up this huge rock from there rocks on the front yard, and had to carry it in her pocket the whole time, except it kept falling out, and I didn`t want this rock to end up in someones house..lol Needless to say it made the journey home and sits in the van.

The first house we looked out was the one we liked most I`d say. It was 1116 square feet. We promised each other no less than 1100, and it`s crazy how some of the layouts really make the house look way bigger than they actually are. It didn`t have a garage but was a good price, so one could be built.

The second third and fourth were no`s.... all nice but nothing I really wanted, and the fifth seemed WAY TOO BIG.. it was crazy, it was 1200 but it was a bi-level, but not like any bi-level I have seen before. I just felt like I would loose my kids in it..lol

We had our eye on one that is 1720 square feet, but it`s not the location we like, and i have to take into consideration this could be a place where the girls grow up, possibly leave home in... we just arn`t sure whats going to happen. So I want to think of that while buying.

We had fun though, I love house hunting, we loved it before when we looked, it`s just funny how now we have 2 kids in tow. I`m excited, and already wanting to pack..lol Trust i need to, I have so much stuff!! Anyways I will keep you updated once we find the one!!

I cried today

A real good cry. A cry I needed to cry cause I haven't had a moment in life to slow down lately, and think about anything. I cried because I looked at my two girls, and thought about how lucky Iam. There my life, my angels, my world. I cried cause right now we are going to be moving to a new home, and maybe it's going to be the home where they grow up, and go to high school, and maybe even leave home in. I cried because I thought of my own mother, who went through the very same thing, letting each one of her children go, and praying each day they would be safe. I looked at my mom yesterday and thought about all she has been through in her life, and her own mother, all she went through as well. Then I thought about my friends mom, one that comes to mind, and I cried even more. I sometimes think my life is hard, but I can't imagine to be going through what one of my friends is going through right now. I wish I could hug her and tell her it's going to be ok..but really is it?? Knowing your mom might pass on, I don't think it's ever going to be ok....

I've realized life needs to slow down...one day I will look back upon these years and wonder where they went, and wish to have them back. Enjoy each day, cause before you know it, they will be leaving home!!!

I've added a video...it's a great song, talking about mother's and daughters, and stay at home mom's. Be prepared to grab a few tissue's.. you'll need it!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CeEEMRQjW8

Things Change

Well as you know I haven't blogged for a long time. Life has been busy and full of many new life changes and surprises. We decided to move, and as most of you know our house is for sale right now. We listed Wednesday afternoon. We decided building on is going to be a hassle and all it will be is an addition and not much more extra room, and the price of building on was going to be the same as moving and having a huge down payment. We are excited and scared about finding another place cause this is our home. This is where it started, and this is home to the girls. But we are excited because we are ready for a bigger house. It's getting tight with the girls, and with the baby on the way, it's only going to get tighter.

Well I went to the doc this week and he said I have very low blood pressure, told me to take it easy, cancel my gym membership, and to slow down. I laughed...cause how can a mother of two toddlers do such a thing. My girls keep me moving all day long till bedtime, then it's time to clean clean clean. And now with doing showings, i have no time to have a messy house, and sometimes have a 30 minute notice for when someone is coming to view. It has been tough and hard, but I know and pray this wont go on for weeks. I have been so tired lately, and it's due to my low blood pressure, but I could close my eyes at any time and be out...and that's not like me.

Well I'm hoping someone out there loves our home and purchases it soon. I'm ready to start looking but we can't till we sell... hopefully something good comes out of this weekend.

Anyways off to do hair...it will slow down soon..lol...

What a Beautiful Week

The weather has been amazing this week, and we have been outside mostly every day. It did rain Tuesday but I met Dayna and Andrea at Chucky Cheese, and had a good time there.. I have been very tired this week, and trying to take each day as they come. Some days I think "how am I going to be able to do this.. three kids".. But i always remember how different you feel when you are pregnant..

I have had a sore throat all week, and it has turned into a cough now. But it's one of those coughs where u can't cough cause it hurts too much. It's nothing major, and it's getting better everyday!!

We are taking Allie to the monster trucks on Saturday night. We are really looking forward to it, and I can't wait...

As for the rest of the week, just hanging low, cleaning the yard this weekend. Right now the draftsmen is here again measuring more stuff. Iam getting excited to see the plans next week. Anyways gotta run he needs me..lol..bye

Holidays

Well our holidays were great, but it's always nice to come home. Especially travelling with two small children, who need diaper changes, feedings, nap times..ect..ect... But you learn to make do. They napped when they were tired, and we made do with the rest. Bed times were good, except Aubrie is teething these days again, so the nights she cried some.. but atleast Allie slept through it. She sleeps like her daddy....hears nothing. Aubrie sleeps like me... hears everything.

It was fun, we did alot of swimming, and shopping and touring around. We bought the girls bunk beds.. Nice wooden ones that come apart, we bought a new high chair that's amazing.. it does so many things, and one huge thing I wanted was for it to fold up, and it does. Plus it was only $49.00. Things r so cheap down there it's crazy!!!

The girls had a good time, and Allie even got to meet Dora and Boots in the mall which she talked about for days and still does. She was in amazement. Lets just say it was alot of fun, and I'm sure we will be going again soon.

As for me, I'm coming up on 8 weeks, and wow I feel huge and so out of it already. I feel like I really don't know how I'm going to make the next 7 months, and am beginning to really not like this pregnancy so far. I feel fine, like no sickness or nothing, but I can hardly breath, and I feel way larger then I should for 8 weeks. But hopefully it passes, and I feel better soon.

So we have obviously decided we have to make a move in our life, whether it's moving, or building on, cause we r getting too small for this house as it is. We looked at an acreage near Disley, but we didn't like it in the end. We contemplated moving, got our house appraised for an amazing amount, but the turn around.. to buy another house is crazy. For what we want is anywhere from $300,000 to $350,000... just sickening to move under those conditions. So today I had a contractor out. Someone Riley knows well, and had him look at my ideas and plans, and everything went great!! He said all will work well, they will draw up the plans and we will go from there. The should begin by early summer and should take no more than a few months to complete. So I think we are headed that route. We would be adding on 400 more square feet. I'm getting so excited, and never dreamed it would happen this fast. He said it may even happen sooner, they just have to draw the plans and then get the permit, and it's the permit that sometimes take longer than normal. So I will know more details next week. They did all the measuring today and are coming back next week with the drawings. Iam excited.. yey!!!

Anyways.. have a great week....

Happy 4th Wedding Anniversary!!!

Well, 4 years ago today, I said I do, to a man I will love till the day i leave this earth. Riley is my best friend, my soul mate, and the reason Iam here today!! I love you honey.. even though he doesn't read my blogs... he knows it!!! We are off to Minot today... bye!!

Doing Better

Well over the weekend I did alot of thinking and some what relaxing. We went to Quill Lake and had a goodtime. Saw friends at the wedding we attended, and it was just nice to get out, a different change from sitting at home. Allie danced most of the night, and Aubrie fell asleep by 9. It was fun, we were home around midnight. The funny things is, that it's completely winter there. It was -18 Saturday night, it snowed all weekend, u could skidoo for miles, they just have tons of snow. Then when we drove home on Sunday, we hit plus 11 near Southey. Crazy difference.

I want to say thanks to some of my friends who took the time to email me personally and let me know your side of things, as well as offered to babysit the girls. That was SO thoughtful of the few of you that did that!! That's really what true friends are, so thanks again. But with spring here, and summer around the corner, the girls and I will be out alot more, and I'm really looking forward to it. Iam already feeling alot better this week. I've learnt how to calm my emotions, and that yelling isn't helping the situation. I've really noticed a difference in myself, and I hope it stays this way.

We leave for the states on Thursday morning our 4th wedding Anniversary!! We r all very excited to get away, do some shopping, and swimming, and just be together as a family.

Emotional

Well i can say this pregnancy has really taken a toll on me so far. From day one I think my spirits were lifted, I'm sad, depressed, and cry everyday!! It's crazy, but I don't understand what is going on anymore. I've been hiding my emotions from everybody, until now!! This week wasn't a good one, and I know this probably isn't the place to say, but sometimes blogging releases things from me..

Riley and i fought every night this week, and me, my temper has lost all control lately. I can't seem to take life at this point and was willing to end things a few times if I was brave enough. This city has been really getting to me, and this house, and the space, and just life in general. I'm tired of doing hair. I've never had a break. 2 weeks after Allie was born, I was working, 2 weeks after Aubrie was born, I was working.. the girls get upset when I work cause it's no attention to them. Aubrie is really a mommy girls, so it's hard trying to concentrate on hair and having a crying baby wanting mommy. Iam trying to being a mom, and have a business at the same time, and it's too hard. I'm letting ALOT go.. I've really had enough. I want to pack it all in, and just let it go.

Allie has been nutty this week, just going wild it seems, not listening, making TONS of noise when Aubrie is sleeping cause she knows... Aubrie wants mommy, and thats it, and I want to crawl in a hole and DIE....

I had a huge fight with Riley tonight, cause I just never get time for me. All my friends go out, and have fun, and go here and there, but me, I go EVERYWHERE with my girls. I never have me time. I loved going to the gym, and it's been months since i have gone, cause I can never just go with me, I have to take them along, and worry about how there doing in the daycare. I've never had more than a few hours to myself since they have been born. I'm couped up in the house, and I'm sick of my house. I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I would love to drink, and before I got pregnant I was damn close to it, but was thankful I didn't, and now can't and wont. I've been stressed more than I knew u could be stressed, and it is beginning to scare me. I'm thinking of.. well I'm just not sure what I'm thinking anymore.

I just needed to vent, don't worry bout me, u know yourself how this comes and goes, and it's life things..blah blah blah... I just feel like a walking time bomb lately, waiting to explode. but I'll be ok!!

April Fools

Well this is the first year in a long time I never got anyone. I usually get someone, but this morning, was a busy one. Up early, to organising and throwing out toys that r just junky ones and the girls really don't play with, to Aubrie having a huge fall. She was pushing the stool as she always does to walk, but lost her balance and fell back, holding onto the stool, so she now has her first black eye. She is doing good though.

Weekend was good. Quill lake has huge amounts of snow still, it's crazy. I went there with spring coats on everyone, and rubber boots on Allie thinking she could splash in puddles..lol...

I got to see my friend Kristyn and her girls Halle and Heidi. It was nice to have a visit with them. Sunday we drove to Dilke, and visited mom and dad, then back home that evening.

As for this week, these past few days I have been sorta taking it easy, feeling really good, and having a few pregnancy symptoms, like bleeding nose..only ever get this when I'm pregnant, and really sore hair. Ya sounds funny, but ti's so true. My hair hurt so much when I was pregnant with the other girls..lol Who knows, maybe another girl.. lol...