Can I Retire??

Yes from being a mom...it's 8am, and I already am going nutty, Allie went to bed late, and well that always makes for a crappy day next day. Aubrie has been doing great lately, all week has slept through the night, it's been awesome. Riley and I still camp out in the livingroom for now, I sleep alot better without having her beside me to hear all night long.. and when she is done her crying at night, she will move in with her sister...but as for today, I woke up tired. Didn't sleep well cause I actually drempt Riley died, and it was so real. SO my night wasn't so well, and at 5am when I met him in the bathroom for our anual pee breaks, I hugged him and said, "you better never leave me"...I think he was half asleep, and was like, "ok".... But Allie woke ealry, so did Aub's, and Allie just frustrates me with how much she drinks. The second she opens her eyes, she wants her sippie cup. I filled it with water, and she downed it in seconds, and cried for another. I don't understand at all. I was frustrated and didn't want to give her another till she ate her breakfeast. So she had a crying fit. And who wants to hear that at 8am. So after she ate some, yes i gave her another sippie cause I was tired of the crying, and she downed that one. I never can seem to keep up with her diapers anymore without her leaking out cause she has SO MUCH pee in there. I spend my days trying to get her to be nicer to Aubrie. Some days she is great, the next she hurts her all day, I can't leave them in a room together without hearing Aubrie screaming cause Allie kicked her or something.

So yes, today I want to retire. I want to be in bed still sleeping, with no one around. I want to be able to clean the house without someone un-doing everything. I want to be able to go downstairs and give myself a color cause my roots are an inch grown out, I would love to sit and do my nails but am always rushed doing it. I would love to just be by myself today, but I don't have that option. Do I ever?? NO!!! I have to continue on being a mom, and deal with the wonder 2's..... AAHHHHHHH