Here's to a new day

To the weary mom's that can relate. The stay at home mom's who have done this your entire motherhood. I feel for you each and every day.  I'm tired.. I'm weary.. 

This has been the hardest 6 months of my life  I will admit that.  God is truly testing us.  It's been hard on our marriage. I'm tired most days and I'm guessing the members of my family don't see that or see why.

I'm tired of changing diapers.. I'm tired of washing poop out of panties. I'm tired of being puked on and I'm tired of the tantrums and the crying. I'm tired of the terrible 2 year old stage.. I'm tired of bottle feeding and the constant schedule to make my life happen.. 

I feel like most days I do the same thing over and over and over. And I get tired of the same thing. Laundry has been awful these past 6 months. The house always a mess. Every where I turn is a mess. I feel like I never get to sit down and have a break.. between dealing with babies all day.. a 2 yr old on top of it.  I've cried many days.. I've lost my cool. . I've lost my patience. . I've hated mother hood.. I've hated my house.. my husband my kids.. I've wanted to drive away with no where to go and never come back.. I've prayed to God many days asking for help.. for strength. . For patience.. 

I admit I'm not perfect. I admit I struggle with motherhood and being a good wife.. cause I no I haven't had time to even be a wife these past 6 months. . He tries to hug and kiss and hold me but I'm to busy I just push him away.

I cried today a real hard cry.. I wanted to escape motherhood. I was angry at God for giving me all these Children.   I cried hard cause I'm so weary and frustrated and tired .. and all I could hear was my dad's voice saying softly "Cari, your gonna miss this.   It's going to fly by so quick.. just do your best and enjoy this life"!

So I wiped my tears and told myself I can do this! ! Here's to a new day☺